BGM: ZABADAK - 遠い音楽It was a day off today, and this morning I went to enjoy an offline meeting for the English learners in my town. At where, we talked about various things as how to manage/maintenance this group, and also how we shoul…

Two days have passed away since the news about the friend - but I can't see if my mind has been actually getting recovered from the depressed state. It seems that it can't accept any books as any enjoyment yet, so I just have to face to my…

BGM: Manic Street Preachers - Everything Must GoWhen I was a high school student, although now I have forgotten how this word had been mentioned within its context, I had certainly read the word "grief work" from Ryuichi Sakamoto's essay. …

BGM: Fishmans - Long SeasonI worked early today. This morning, I heard that an Indonesian friend of mine had passed away. Indeed, I had learned that she was in a struggle with an illness, but I had never expected this - so I felt really up…

BGM: Pavement - Range LifeNow I am writing a draft for the coming presentation of mine at the 15th of this month, and finding that my days are really plain and boring. I wake up, do some morning tasks (taking a bath, having breakfast, wash…

BGM: 井上陽水 - 夢寝見As I have written in this journal, TBH I am an employee of a department store. I always walk from here to anywhere in the store (so it often reaches about 8,000 steps per a day,) and also carry various boxes of items.…

BGM: HiGE - ロックンロールと五人の囚人I have been writing/making a rough draft for the presentation eventually. I need to write the facts around/about me. I have decided to use some of The Beatles' songs' titles to decorate mine. For examp…

BGM: Susumu Hirasawa - Mermaid SongAs I have already written in this journal, eventually I have been writing my English memo for the next presentation I will do at the 15th of this month. It seems that I just need to write various facts fo…

BGM: 小沢健二 - 天気読みAs I have written in this journal, I usually enjoy reading books and also listening to some music at my free time. But, it was recent when I have started enjoying various classical achievements. For example, I have …

BGM: The Beatles - A Day In The LifeTBH, on 15th of this month I will have a presentation of a meeting so I have thought what I should do at that turn, and decided to tell the other members about my days simply. The title of the presentati…

BGM: Rod Stewart feat. Stevie Wonder - What A Wonderful WorldWhat is my lifework? Today, suddenly I have thought about this. TBH, although I have worked at the current workplace/company for over 20 years, I can't think it suits for me. I h…

BGM: Sting - Let Your Soul Be Your PilotToday, a friend of mine asked me this. "Why/how can you find such interesting books?" It has been an interesting question, and also a difficult one to answer. She asked this after reading my short re…

BGM: The Who - The Kids Are AlrightHow do they (other people) think about me? What kind of impression does everyone have to me? Once, during the teenage period, I had been suffered from this kind of really sick idea - an illness from the o…

BGM: Hiroshi Fujiwara - Natural Born DubI worked late today. TBH, this morning I felt a certain depressive mood within myself. Although there is no clear reason why I should feel so, I couldn't throw that mood away - so I needed to treat t…

BGM: Hayden - The Closer I GetIt was a day off today. I went to AEON this morning. At there, I read Martin Heidegger's "Nietzsche" a little. Of course, it was really difficult one for me to explain something as my opinion easily, but it wa…

BGM: b-flower - 舟This evening, I enjoyed a meeting with other friends on Discord. At there, we talked about how we spend/enjoy each one's reading time (what music we listen to, or where we go to buy books, etc.) It was a pleasant time. Ab…

BGM: Fishmans - いかれたBabyI worked late today. This morning, reading a collection of philosophical essays by a favorite author of mine Kazushi Hosaka (保坂和志『言葉の外へ』,) I've thought this. Can I write my own thing as a kind of nove…

BGM: The Other Two - SelfishWhy do I read so many books? I have been using the Japanese web service bookmeter, which says I have already read almost 1500 books in these 9 years (about 3000 days.) When I was a child, I had not read such man…

BGM: 豊田道倫 - 新宿I always write this journal by reading my English memos every day. Now, I read them and find I had written like this. "About a concept, an illusion, 'LOVE'." Yes, I had thought that LOVE could be an illusion (at least, …

BGM: tofubeats (feat. 仮谷せいら) - SO WHAT!?From today, I will enjoy this season's English conversation class. This class has been held by my city's international association organization, therefore the cost is really reasonable. The teac…

BGM: Nine Inch Nails - The Perfect DrugIt was a day off today. I went to the hospital to see my doctor. When had I started this "monthly meeting" with my doctors about my mental problems (autism, insomnia, etc...)? It had been when I was a…

BGM: Silent Poets feat. Terry Hall - Sugar ManThis morning I had the monthly meeting about autism with my friends. At that meeting, I could enjoy the other members' great stories. They taught me about the struggles they have had to open/cr…

BGM: Supercar - YUMEGIWA LAST BOYHow many chapters have I experienced until now if I can use the metaphor of novel to this life? Or what season I'm in right now if I can use the concept of four seasons? I remember - one of my favorite writ…

BGM: OPUS III - I Talk To The WindThis morning I went to the library to borrow two books. The one is the collection of Junichiro Tanizaki's romantic letters to two women (『谷崎潤一郎の恋文』) and the other is a deeply philosophical one (…

BGM: Perfume - ポリリズムOnce when I read a notorious Japanese philosopher Yoshimichi Nakajima's essay, I had learned an interesting concept of "philosophical illness (哲学病)." Yes, I have been also that kind of patient of philosophy. The…

BGM: Fishmans - 新しい人Today I've read Shinji Miyadai's old book (宮台真司『日本の難点』.) In this book, the author Miyadai tries to explain/teach about what kind of difficulties this country Japan have had. Although it was written/publis…

BGM: Oasis - Go Let It OutToday I've read an interesting article on the net. It tells me an important concept/keyword, "non-cognitive skills." It is a difficult one to tell you the meaning, but it can mean that there are two types of smart…

BGM: Scritti Politti - Wood BeezTomorrow I will have an offline meeting which is held by my city's international association. I am thinking about what I will talk about at that opportunity. I will talk about the job I have been doing, and …

BGM: Electronic - Feel Every BeatIt was a day off today. This morning I had felt slightly depressed, therefore I could do nothing. I needed to change my mood so went to the library, and found two interesting books at there. "The Genetic Lo…

BGM: The Beatles - The Long And Winding RoadSometimes I am asked as this - "how many years have you been learning English?" TBH, now I am 49, and I started learning it at 13, when I was a junior high school student (in Japan, the people wh…