BGM: Fishmans - Long Season
I worked early today. This morning, I heard that an Indonesian friend of mine had passed away. Indeed, I had learned that she was in a struggle with an illness, but I had never expected this - so I felt really upset by this news. Although I have never been a person with a strong belief toward God, I have wished her soul rests in peace. By this event, I have thought that the connections/boundaries I have had are really precious.
Although I had been in a really upset, depressed mind, I had to work as usual. I started working with a stable mind - but I finally confessed this to a co-worker of mine. She said to me about her personal experience, and it worked certainly for me as a slight curing for my soul - so I could have worked completely by its end.
I try to remember - but I can't see when we had met at the first time. But anyway, since that we have exchanged messages each other on WhatsApp and Facebook. I could show her my articles and poor poems, and she had enjoyed reading them. Those memories with her are still alive in me. Now, I just say that "rest in peace" for her.
Yes, it was really a tough day - after today's work, I went back to my group home. I had tried not to come back from that depressive mood so rapidly because it would work dangerously. I thought I should immerse my mind with a really, ultimately sad song - so I chose a Japanese rock band, Fishmans' tune "Long Season" (I wish you would try to listen to this song if you have never enjoyed... even though it is a Japanese song, I beg you can feel this song's extreme melancholy and also a holy atmosphere.)
At 7:30 pm, I joined an online meeting via zoom. A presenter taught us about how ancient people had made a Japanese seasoning, Miso. I certainly felt that his explanation delivered me a certain taste of that Miso, so I have thought it must be a good one. After that, I felt really tired so slept for a while.
Besides that friend, I have met various, really grateful people... and now, I can have enjoyed my life with them. I guess - maybe, this is a taste of our precious, wonderful one and only life.
Rest in peace - Terima Kasih, my friend.