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Being a daydreamer and doing as an activist

Am I dreaming? I ask myself this. I'm waiting for something nice to happen? Like an anime movie, a girl would fall from the sky... am I waiting like that kind of event? I ask myself... Once I waited for something miraculous to happen. I wa…

Body answers me

Busy days go on. Today, when I had lunch, I thought about the possibility of myself. I could get another job and join another company as an employee. Or I could keep on studying something at the university. Anyway, I could become somebody …

It must end as a bubble

I always wonder what I should write. Oh... I am not a great writer, so I don't have to feel any pressure. I can't write as greatly as Nabokov, Faulkner, or Thoreau. I can see it clearly, and that fact/truth must make me easy to write more.…

A better life

Today I had to work even if it was Christmas Eve. I'm working at a company in the countryside. My past friends asked me why I have worked at that kind of workplace. I can work at any better companies... Maybe they were right. I even don't …

You may say I'm spoiled

Once I was told that the average age of alcoholic people is about 52 years old. 52 years old... now I'm 46. If I kept on drinking alcohol, my life would end after about 6 years... it's short? Or long? Once I was a heavy drinker, I thought …

The strength of beliving in God

I heard that Kenji Ozawa's album "The Dogs Bark, But The Caravan Moves On" will be released again. This album is one of my favorites in my life. An evergreen one. When I was a high school student, I asked my father to give me as a present …

A nameless performance

Why do I write? This is also a piece of an enigma for me. Why... I like writing and I have written various things since my childhood. Many, many pieces of long novels (I wanted to make them as a long, long novel as "Record of Lodoss War").…

Why, why, why...

Why do I live? I ask this to myself again. Why? Yes, I say this word again and again, as Oasis's song "Champagne Supernova". Why why why... I can't see the answer. I even make myself crazy because of asking it too much. Now it's 10 am and …

A piece of sad news

Today I found a piece of sad news. It told me that a famous Japanese actress Sayaka Kanda had passed away. It might be because of suicide... the situation itself says so, I heard. This news made me sad because the idea of committing suicid…