BGM: Rod Stewart feat. Stevie Wonder - What A Wonderful World
What is my lifework? Today, suddenly I have thought about this. TBH, although I have worked at the current workplace/company for over 20 years, I can't think it suits for me. I have been always an alien at there (but of course, this is from my own narrow, childish viewpoint so my co-workers would say different opinions.)
At lunchtime, I asked this question to myself. "What can be my lifework?" When I had started the current job, TBH it was for me just to earn a certain money, not to do that kind of diligent lifework (of course, my bosses/co-workers would feel bad if they read this. I should write as carefully as I can.) But now, I can see that I can have felt that this job might be the lifework of mine. It must sound strange - but C'est la vie.
Besides that job, I have started learning English since I was 40. Although I had studied English literature at a university, I had spent my precious days with gallons of alcohol so I had to wait for that time to decide to learn English seriously again. Yes, this is another/alternative lifework for me. I have been writing this English journal on the internet, and also using the English memo every day. Oh, life is strange!
When I was in my 20s, or even in my 30s, I couldn't believe that I would be able to try to learn English, and also to treat my current job as a kind of great lifework. Oh my gosh. As I have written in this journal, I have been influenced by Haruki Murakami's legendary episode. He got a huge inspiration when he had been watching a baseball game, and that led him to write his first novel. After reading that episode, I had waited for any huge inspiration to come to me so long.
Yes, there are so many types of people in this world - some of them can find their missions during their youthful days (like Shohei Ohtani.) But, I'm not that kind of person so I needed to wait for so long. The first contact with my job coach, and also my friends, etc.Oh no. Today I can't write any cool conclusion as a happy ending of today's entry! Anyway - I just say once again this magic word. "C'est la vie."