BGM: Susumu Hirasawa - Mermaid Song
As I have already written in this journal, eventually I have been writing my English memo for the next presentation I will do at the 15th of this month. It seems that I just need to write various facts for that, so I am trying to record them dutifully, not only the thoughts I have within this life. For example, although you may think this must not be funny/attractive, I record what books I have borrowed from the library, or what music I have been attracted by. I have even recorded diligently when I went to the bathroom at AEON.
Yes, today I went to the library to borrow some books. Although I planned to borrow two books including Yukio Mishima's "Spring Snow" (三島由紀夫『春の雪』), at there a librarian said to me that they had the book by Claude Simon's classical novel I had once reserved (クロード・シモン『農耕詩』.) So I borrowed all of them and went back to my group home. After having a nap, even though it was completely a free time for me so I could stay in my room comfortably with doing nothing, I couldn't stay still (maybe this has come from my autism) so went outside again.
At AEON, I had played a few silly ideas alone. For example, I had thought what ideas could the Paul and John had thought during their playing The Beatles' various bangers (could they think that during playing their evergreen love songs "Oh, he must have played a wrong tune!"). And also, I started reading an interesting book. During reading it, I thought about death which would someday come to me. Yes, the novel (保坂和志『もうひとつの季節』) certainly tells me how wonderful this world itself can be. TBH, once I had adored this author's great philosophical and imaginative mind.
When I was a heavy drinker, I had rarely read books. Although I had had a certain will to stop/quit drinking alcohol forever from that time/moment, I couldn't stop doing that silly habit/behavior. So now, although I always have to experience a trouble to endure boredom which seems me driving mad, I can enjoy reading with a stable mind - Probably the life has been made as a fair thing.
