BGM: Sting - Let Your Soul Be Your Pilot
Today, a friend of mine asked me this. "Why/how can you find such interesting books?" It has been an interesting question, and also a difficult one to answer. She asked this after reading my short review of 燃え殻's brilliant debut novel 『ボクたちはみんな大人になれなかった』, which had been also a Netflix movie. I had learned about this book by watching that movie at first. Like this, I tend to learn about various books from Netflix, "bookmeter", the social media X, Facebook, Discord, and so on.
Yes - if I try to answer this question as honestly as I can, I have to explain the way I have lived this life (yes, I am talking about the whole lifestyle of mine as what kind of life I have lived as mine, not only what books I have read or what kind of portal book sites I have used.) In addition to, I have to tell her (or to you) that it must have come from the element, LUCK. It's (at least, for me) just the story of what kind of "ghosts" you have encountered or what kind of "flying saucers" you have seen. In other words, it has to become a kind of "occult" story (BTW, I have never seen any ghosts and UFOs in my life.)
Yes, in a way, at least about books I just tend to rely on the luck I have had. As I have written in this journal, being guided by the luck of mine, I have met various books which can have changed/controlled me. Stephen King, Haruki Murakami, Paul Auster, and so on - In other words, I have never had any great life plan about reading (for example, the one like "during this life I must try to read Dickens completely" as a character from Haruki's "Norwegian Wood".)
No plan - only following my instinct's whispering. You might say I am just a stupid, childish reader. I accept that - and look back at my life. Yes, I had followed my hunch dutifully - learning American literature, starting listening to Fishmans, calling the person from my group home when I was in 30s. I must have a strong, powerful inner voice which must have guided me. Then, how that voice will guide me to my future? As 燃え殻's book suggests, this voice might be a form of the "hope" for me?
