BGM: Scritti Politti - Wood Beez
Tomorrow I will have an offline meeting which is held by my city's international association. I am thinking about what I will talk about at that opportunity. I will talk about the job I have been doing, and also why I have learned English. But, I am also wondering if I should talk about the fact that I am autistic. Yes, as you can see, it must be so sensitive that I should decide that choice carefully.
I usually tell the people about my autism openly because that fact of being autism actually consists this myself. But of course, as I have written many times in this journal, autism is only one piece of mine, not the main one. I have read so many books, and those achievements have taught me that a person can have really many essences in their minds. That's the spirit of diversity I believe.
Therefore, I want to tell about my autism as casually/easily as possible. At least, now when I tell about my autism, then it tends to bring us a certain sound/atmosphere of a sad thing (a kind of tragedy.) "I am autistic, therefore I have had to live such a miserable life, so gimme dignity, human right, and real money!" etc. But I want to say this. Now, although I am not rich and handsome, I am happy.
Let's see this topic from another viewpoint - The meeting I will attend is not any serious one, but just for enjoying chatting. Therefore I want to join there to enjoy its mood, not to discuss about diversity so seriously. I won't say that people ALWAYS (yes, always as 24 hours) should think about diversity seriously. That's too idealistic (I even say that it must be a fascism.) So, how can I afford a certain pleasant mood as a member? I am thinking about this.
Today I have thought about this kind of thing. As ONE member, ONE piece of a group, how can I do to help the total group... I believe that this way of thinking will give me a certain modesty back. I am one of them. As a famous quote, "one for all" and "all for one". Yes, this is a really thrilling, grateful idea for me (Oh my gosh! I couldn't have written about today!)
