BGM: 井上陽水 - あの素晴しい愛をもう一度
It was a day off today. I went to the library and borrowed Mitsuyoshi Numano's some books. And also I got interested in Dan SHAO's book about translation so borrowed it. Recently I am getting into this kind of issues about "languages" we are using actually as an interest. This might be controversial, but I believe that we can't live our life without these languages basically. And I also think that those languages play the role of "bridge" which connects others and I, so we can't stay within each other's world lonelily. Indeed, we often might have to live as hikikomoris. But we also have to consider this fact that we are trying to "communicate with ourselves" because we use languages as a tool to catch and think various things. If so, languages are primary wonderful. This means that we are not so far from that Wittgenstein's amazing ideas. I have also been surprised by the languages (Japanese and English) so I hope this reading would suggest me a lot.
At 10 am, I started using ZOOM and attended the meeting about autism I have been enjoying monthly. It was a great one as usual. The members taught us "how to make successes with housework and office work" and "the information about the support for working and studying". I say that this meeting always provides me chances of learning. In other words, I have been learning a lot of unknown things for me through this opportunity. It doesn't only mean that "I am learning a lot from others". It can mean the fact that "I am TELLING a lot to others" as a form of relationship. We are enjoying "we exchange a lot interactively". That is because we are "equal" or "even". At least, on this meeting, we talk about a lot from each other by that "even" relationship. There is never any relationship as "who is older/younger" or "who is a teacher/student" like that. We can share our worries easily, and we can learn a lot from that easy atmosphere. Yes, it is really "an oasis in our minds". Or I should say it is "a Nirvana".
This time I talked about a woman from Russia. She has been reading this journal really honestly so I wanted to share about her with others. She shows her interest toward autism itself... But I have to say this. We are not specialist so we might not be able to suggest/provide proper answers to her worries/questions. The other members said to me as "we want to welcome/help her!". I was glad to hear that. This afternoon we talked about a Japanese drama about autism "Boku no Daisuki na Tsuma!". I heard that it is really a popular one. By that topic, I reminded the dramas "The Good Doctor" and "Extraordinary Attorney Woo". I can feel that we can enjoy various dramas about autistic people who show their genius talent and survive their lives. Indeed, that can have a serious problem. Should we show that kind of "genius talent" to others to be useful in this society (although this might be too critic)? But anyway, it is a great trend for us that the concept autism has been becoming as a hot key concept.
After that meeting, I went to AEON and sent that Russian woman a message on WhatsApp (OH MY! I forgot saying this... we exchange messages in English). Then she wrote me a really honest greeting, and also questions of her. I thought I had to be responsible about this... so I printed out that and read carefully as much as I could. Going back to my group home, and I thought I wanted to watch "Extraordinary Attorney Woo" which I had watched in a halfway (it is a great drama so I recommend). But... it seems that any ZOOM meeting would "eat" my vitality/concentration. My brain couldn't work so I had to spent my night lazily. I also forgot sending a celebration message to my father as The Father Day's one... Autism is quite an enigmatic handicap. I can remember that I had to cry a lot because of this. But the life seems fair to me. THANKS TO this handicap, we (the Russian woman, or the members of that meeting) and I could become as precious friends. I have been learning a lot from them.
