2022/05/30 English

Today I went to the hospital to see the doctor about my autism. After that, I came back to my home and enjoyed chatting. I was said that "I thought you have overcome autism". Yes, this comment is from the person's goodness I believe. But as a sad fact, autism is a lifelong problem and many autistic people are suffering from autism's second problems such as depression, insomnia, or something else. Therefore we need caring autistic people with support their whole life (this is another sad fact, but there are some people who say that "Why do we (neurotypical people, or normal people) have to care for autistic people with such a huge cost?").

In the afternoon, I took a nap. After that, I watched "The Good Doctor" episode 4 and "Love on the Spectrum" episode 1. I thought about the things (as I wrote above). The TV dramas or reality shows which treat autistic people are increasing, and the chances of looking at their unique ideas or their characters themselves are also. Society or neurotypical people are facing the problem of how to accept those kinds of autistic people's (maverick) characters. But, of course, autistic people should live independently by themselves (using various supports and acting as the people with responsibilities).

In the evening, I watched Stephen Daldry's "Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close". This movie is also about an autistic person. This describes their point of view that let them move. They treat data/facts as important things (not their insight itself, but the numbers or information that everybody can accept). If I chose plain expressions, their activities tend to be like speaking as the dictionaries describe directly. Therefore they are unique, and it becomes a problem how to 'support' or 'care' that uniqueness? This movie lets me think that how autistic people look at this world...

I've finished reading Makoto Yokomichi's "Sinking in blue in Istanbul". The author has traveled a lot of countries as a numerous passion and describes the memories of traveling. But I got the impression that this book became the reading notes, not a traveling log because he refers to/quotes a lot of books he had read. That unbalance is interesting in several ways. Autistic people tend to speak what they think/thought or what they are interested in too directly/honestly. This book is also the figure of the author's honesty, and I like this honesty/uniqueness. But if the readers wanted to read a travel log and bought this book? This idea makes me anxious.