BGM: Bonnie Pink - Lie Lie Lie
It was 36.2℃. Today was a day off. I thought that I would make a white lie as a joke because it was the April fool day, but I could find nothing. The lie as "I'm going to publish my blog from Kadokawa" would let readers down... so I stopped thinking. Going to the library, I borroewd David. J. Charmers' "Reality+" and started reading it for a while. In this book, Charmers starts a discussion about virtual reality. Is this world just a production of imagination? A really thrilling question. Is this world fake?... I don't want to think so. But even if I tried to deny virtual reality is never real, I would accept the fact that the network of social media and also the virtual reality as metaverse support my life. So I can't deny these questions from this book as crap. I found them with a strong interest. Is this world on any simulation? Is there someone looking at our lives from meta level? These are the same question of a Japanese philosopher, Hitoshi Nagai.
After that, I went to Yume Koen and watched Sakura blooming. I couldn't find any free time to enjoy these Sakura flowers, so I made my head blank and tried just to enjoy them. Maybe this can't be an answer to that Charmers' questions, but the Sakura was so real so I say to myself "I can't deny myself who looks at the beautiful real world like this (as Descartes says)". Probably I am too bound strictly by social media. Maybe this sounds banal, but I have to have a leisure in my mind and enable myself to look at such vast and beautiful reality. That would mean that "enjoy the silence" as Depeche Mode sings. Not trying to kill time with listening to music or reading books, but looking at how various events are happening right now in this world. But my brain is so stubborn so I listen to some music in my brain if I watch this kind of beautiful Sakura. Like Brian Eno's ambient music...
It turned afternoon, and I took a nap. I read Koutarou Sawaki's "Poker Face". Through these essays in this book, I thought that Sawaki has an interest in making lies. Lies, in other words making fake or pretending to be someone, saying fake words, making fake fact and replace it to the real one... He wrote in his early essay about a certain temptation of making lies in himself, but he has been one of the greatest non-fiction writes therefore he denied that temptation. He has been trying to write the truth in his various books. But in himself, there must still be the temptation, but he also must know that it would be risky if he lost himself for that temptation. How about me? I am really poor at making any lies (but I won't say that my life has no lie, or I am really honest), so the temptation which talks to me about making lies might be lesser, But making lies to someone might be a pleasure for us ("lies" are the ones those always make "someone" besides us confused and misunderstood about something).
The day turned into the evening, and I found the time to read "Koutarou Sawaki sessions: Experts are speaking". I really enjoyed Sawaki's conversations with the experts from various fields. The experts, who have lived as professional from their world strictly give me a lot of things. Especially, Yoshiharu Habu, who is a great Shogi player, talks about how we should do a waste of effort like Ichiro talks. If there was the conversation between Sawaki and Ichiro, I would read it. After that, suddenly I remembered about the topic of various troubles the words from our mouths provide (In Japanese, this is said as "our mouths are a source of troubles" as an idiom). I have broken a lot of friendly mood because of my careless words, and also I have experienced some flaming on the interet. Especially, this digital era would give us a lot of seeds of troubles which can bloom anytime if we misunderstand the usage of any single word. This blog is also the source of flaming. I can't enjoy any flaming. I just try to post my diary calmly (and that's enough).
