跳舞猫日録

Life goes on brah!

2022/12/17 English

BGM: Etsuko Yakushimaru and Yoshinori Sunahara "Ballet Mécanique"

I listen to the song "Ballet Mécanique" to celebrate this Christmas. This is a collaboration by Etsuko Yakushimaru and Yoshinori Sunahara, and I found that this song is impressive although I was too late. It was written and once performed by Ryuichi Sakamoto, and I am thinking that I should listen to Sakamoto's songs, and also his friends' songs (Yoshinori Sunahara, Keigo Oyamada, and Hiroshi Takano, etc.) again. This song's title "Ballet Mécanique" reminds me of the great novel by Yasumi Tsuhara (he must remember this song), and I am sad because I can't read his new novel more. It's 2022.

Yes, I can't watch Yasujiro Ozu's new film, and also read Yoshikichi Furui and Yasumi Tsuhara's novel more... My taste goes older like this step by step. But I won't say that "recent movies and literature must be dead". Even now, fresh newcomers make their new creations. Every day great ones are being released more and more... Just my taste is getting out of date and that's all. Yes, brilliant art is being shown now, this moment. But they are too many so I can't find them, that's all. Good luck might bring me new art. Just like I found "Ballet Mécanique". Someday it will come.

A piece of news said that snow would fall, and it reminded me of Minae Mizumura'S "Shishousetsu", even if I couldn't read it completely. Yes, it has beautiful scenery of snow at the beginning. Should I write MY novel again? But I am a person with autism so I wouldn't keep on writing it long until its ends. I know that I should write every day (I won't say it would be bothersome). But after writing this diary, I feel like everything in my mind is written completely so I can't write more. And I must admit that I can't keep and "boil" the same, only one idea bit by bit. I know that I should write every day, although I might be able to write only one sentence a day (that day must come).

Tomorrow is the day for the meeting of the group of autism I belong to. I can say that I have grown up with this group's progress together. I guess every member also thinks so. The usage of money, controlling everyday tasks, getting a better quality of life, tuning our minds, cooking by ourselves... we learned a lot of "lifehacks". A member suggests creating our group's website. It can be introduced in this diary if it goes well. But I shouldn't hurry up. Someday I will introduce it so wait for a moment.