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Now I've been reading Keizo Hino's novel "The Light [日野啓三『光』]", which is about an amnesiac ex-astronaut's story. Even though I have just started reading that, I've felt the enigma of our memories is fantastic. Little by little, I'm enjoying this. When I was young, I couldn't understand this kind of very "introverted" sci-fi novel because it seemed like an uncool, barren one. However, now I can enjoy this (definitely, I have become a more mature, older guy than young days).
Reading this, I start thinking like this... When I was young, I couldn't have been interested in writing my memoir, or my journals (yes, the one you're now reading!). Because, from this viewpoint, my days are always almost the same. I wake up, take a bath, attend the Zoom meeting in English, visit AEON, and so on. Do you have any interest in this kind of banal journal? TBH, even though I had started these writing trials, I had thought they must be crap. And now, I feel that they are getting a little "spicier".
As you can tell, I am writing my articles from my memories, which come from not only my brain, but also my body and outer factors such as my memo pad and my system notes. TBH, since the end of last month when I visited a hospital to have my wisdom tooth pulled, and after that when I suffered from serious dizziness, I started thinking like this: I am not so young that someday the day I will find I won't be able to write anything anymore. Yes, that day must come someday (maybe that means I will have to give up the hugest pleasure I can enjoy). Therefore, I want to write various things according to my memories to avoid of being too late.
For writing my memoir on and on, today I thought that I might have to revisit the high school I once attended. However, the staff there won't allow such an unreal wish of mine (mainly because of the issue of security), I can understand that can be right, so if I have time I want to revisit the library in the town next to mine, where the high school exists. There, once when I was a teenager, I borrowed a lot of books such as Steve Erickson and Paul Auster.
