I'm interested in the author Don Delillo. TBH, although once I learned American literature at a university, I have almost never read this writer's works until now (because of this incomplete reading, I have never read Thomas Pynchon and Richard Powers). In Yoshio Kataoka's "Outside of Japanese", Kataoka refers to Delillo's "Libra" and I want to read it, so I reserved it at a library. Like this, my world goes broader little by little. Always I read books one by one steadily and that creates my future.
I have read "Outside of Japanese", and thought about the characters of Japanese. From Kataoka's critique, I have learned that the Japanese language has no 'object'. Japanese people show opinion like "I think this" and starts their communications by battling them. Indeed, this is difficult to understand, but I can see the (so-called) discussions on Twitter. They always battle their opinion as "I think this" and shows no common understanding. They can't reach a common understanding by negotiation... This might be the fact that the Japanese can't make the state 'public'. Very difficult but impressive.
Yesterday I wrote that I have lost my dream completely, and it seems shocked my friends on Facebook and Discord. It's not that I have lost the things I want to do from now. I want to read Don Delillo and learn English more. I can say that I want to keep on reading and learning my whole life. I just want to say that I don't want to live apart from these 'steady' wishes. I want to live now certainly and connect this life to my future, not having any 'big' dreams... This must sound abstract. Now I can enjoy this 'ordinary' life. So I want to live on more.
At night I attend an online meeting. I talked about Clubhouse there. I am an Android user so I had no interest in it, but someone recommended me to use it. I started using it and met Judith, and she (or they) brought me a lot of chances to broaden my connection... Ah, life is wonderful. At that meeting, we talked about Clubhouse and communication in public (For example, at cafes or workplaces). I enjoyed myself. I can remember that various people brought me the chance to communicate like this. If I had not met them, I would spend my time reading with huge loneliness.