跳舞猫日録

Life goes on brah!

2022/07/31 English

BGM: Ryuichi Sakamoto "energy flow"

I've read Yoshio Kataoka's book "Thinking Japanese by English". I felt that Kataoka must be very clever and sensitive. I guess that he tries to write about the process of changing various Japanese into English inside himself. How do the words change in his filter? This must be possible because he believes in his sense of criticism. I think he can have kept on writing as a novelist, an essayist, and a critic until now, across the walls of those genres. I should read the novels he has left, but I can't because of my idleness.

People often say that reading is great. I don't think so. I just read books because I have no way of spending my free time. Or I can say that I don't know the ways of spending them with friends like Haruki Murakami's world's people don't know so. Or I should say that this is the heritage of the past myself who had been troubled by being bullied. I just ran into the books and that was all I could... When I was a high school student, I was almost dead in a classroom and read Banana Yoshimoto and Ryu Murakami. Listening to Pizzicato Five, I kept imagining a sophisticated life in Tokyo. I have walked far from there.

At dinner time, I got the news that a person had passed away. He was the person who helped me very well at the 'danshu' meeting. He had stood by me when I was just a beginner of 'danshu', stopping drinking, and staying sober. He always praised me. I have learned that the meeting itself was made by him, and he guided the road of stopping drinking alcohol for beginners like me. Yes, they must be his great works. I'm exactly feeling thankful for him. I could meet him, that was glad to me. Rest in peace, and thank you again.

Even if I hear that sad news, my body keeps moving actively. My stomach goes empty, and I even eat something now. I ate cooked chicken as dinner, and spent the time until I go to bed with Ian McEwan's "First Love, Last Rites". I was impressed because this book already has classical greatness. Indeed, this has sensational topics, but I can read this steadily and get dazed by the echoes this book has. I can't believe that this is his debut book. I can read his early works from a library, so I will try them. Yoshio Kataoka, Ian McEwan, Ian Banks, Don Delillo. Summertime reading goes on.