After a long night, I worked early. I did my work as usual. As I had written yesterday, I believe that living our daily life steadily and controlling ourselves properly should be the best way to survive this emergency state. No surrender to terrorism... If I find the meaning in my work, that must be to help the people's ordinary lives and support their peaceful lives. That idea gives me a certain motivation of working which sometimes I lose the purpose. With Kiyoshiro Imawano's songs, I did my best.
To tell the truth, my current job isn't the one I had wanted to do. After graduating my university, I couldn't find any job and immediately started as 'the work for bread' as Kafka says. Even now I almost lose the touch of helping someone's life exactly. This work must be the work everyone could do... Indeed, once I believed so. Now I feel that the work supports me well. Through the work, I can control or bring myself up... Can I walk forward to live a stoic life like Eric Hoffer, who worked at a bay and weaved his philosophy?
After dinner, I talked with a staff of my group home. I am interested in the fact that she is reading a biography about Yasushi Sato. I have never read Sato's book. Ah, a lot of books are there, in this world... now I can't read because of the incident about Shinzo Abe, but I would read Douglas Richard Hofstadter’s books if I could read again. Oh my gosh, in any situation, I read books. Like my work, reading might be the duty of controlling myself.
The night, maybe because the incident about Abe had affected me, I slept well and could do nothing. Watching Twitter, I found that the incident still shakes the atmosphere of the internet. A user wrote that 'Abe should be killed'. It made me sick... Although I think about Abe negatively, I won't respect the person who forgets the common sense of "we should be treated with dignity", and also treats someone's life without any decency. Even if they believed the same thoughts or beliefs as me. So I won't respect various 'liberal' left people on Twitter. I might die as 'an old-fashioned idiot leftist' as Toshiya Ueno says.
