BGM: David Holmes - Don't Die Just Yet
It was a day off. I couldn't enjoy today's morning meeting via Facebook. I went to the 本の蔵, a book café. Although I wanted to talk about my job, and also how I have been sickened by the fact I am virgin. But, actually at the café I chose that I would stay at the quiet place to enjoy the bookish atmosphere (Yes, if it is OK, I would like to confess these things to the staff.) I found the great collections of notebook by Albert Camus (カミュ『カミュの手帖』,) and also Akira Abe's book (a fictional journal. 阿部昭『緑の年の日記』.) Therefore, after that staying, I went to the library to borrow Abe's that book.
After that, at afternoon, I took a nap at my group home. A post officer delivered me the book by Nobuhiko Kobayashi (小林信彦『夢の砦』.) I started reading Susan Sontag's "Metaphor As Illness.", and found that it must be really actual/useful one for me to think about various things. Although it must not be any illness, I want to think about autism because autism is one of the popular phenomenon in this era for us to live with (I accept it so.) Someone says that we can accept autistic people as gifted ones (they even say they must be geniuses.) But, as you could understand, it could be too "romantic" ideology/idea. We should accept illnesses/handicaps as a piece of fact practically. Sontag's book tells us that calmness is important (her words are really warm.)
Although I had to go to the dentist, I had felt really depressed (maybe therefore I couldn't have talked to the master of that café 本の蔵.) so I cancelled it. I wrote the article I had reserved as an advent calendar 2023 on a server of Discord. During that writing, I checked how many books I had read in 2022, and found that it could be 198. About one book per two days. I wrote about an inner beast in me, which lets me read such a lot of books to cure my soul.
I've been thinking about what books I would read through this really busy season. You would say that I couldn't read anything in such a busy period. But, as a bookworm, I say I must need something to read to endure such a hard, painful time. That's me.
