BGM: Steve Reich - Music For 18 Musicians (Coldcut Remix)
This morning, I couldn't find any motivation to do anything actively (so I quit taking a bath.) After breakfast, I started reading a book at AEON even though a certain apathy had haunted me. The book was Ryuichi Sakamoto's "Sakamoto Library [坂本龍一『坂本図書』]". It was the second time I've enjoyed it, and even this time it was still fresh enough for me. Sakamoto tried to explain what kind of books/authors have influenced (or "built") him in this book.
This book tells us about what he kept thinking in his late career, and that is about the concept of "time". As you might have seen, enjoying music needs the flow of time (in other words, every piece of music must require a certain period.) Therefore, he started thinking about that concept by reading books from Japanese literature to European philosophy. It must be quite a thrilling concept for us to think about because time is an invisible, maybe an imaginative thing for us (therefore, some people even say that time doesn't exist in this world - only human beings can "feel" it.)
Following his narration in this book, I find his perspectives must have been profound and philosophical (He could have enjoyed Heidegger's "Being and Time" I guess.) After reading this book, I thought about my case because this book suggests me I should think about what my lifetime theme can be. What are the things I have thought, and I still keep on working as a mission in this life? For me, that can be the issues about communication as Wittgenstein had written in his strange, even funny career.
After enjoying reading... I started trying to listen to my inner voice steadily/quietly. I couldn't concentrate on anything so even chose to enjoy classical music such as Debussy and Ravel. TBH, every morning I have to do this kind of struggle to find out what I will do the next time... I often start thinking about what I should do if I die today if my thinking goes too deeply in this kind of case. Oh, this strange, even odd-functioned brain!
Tomorrow I will have a day off. As I have written above, my mood has been still out of order. But if I were able to find out a certain motivation, I would go to a mountain in my town to enjoy nature, and also refresh my mood (there must not be any wi-fi so I would enjoy the downloaded data of Steve Reich's marvelous music.)
