BGM: George Harrison "All Things Must Pass"
One thing which I can't write here made me depressed, so once I only could stay still on the bed and do nothing. But blaming myself doesn't make the situation better so I have to think about how to solve the problem. I lined to the staff of my group home and also thought about what I could do for the solution. As one way of solution, I decided to write down my emotion in a diary by using an app. It's the action of writing what I am feeling and also suffering. It will make my confused mind clean, and also let me see how once I could recover from my past troubles. That will work well for my mind so I decided to do so.
I think about this journal. In the beginning, I never thought that it would be nice for me, but I just wanted to tell my friends on Discord and MeWe how my life is. But now, this work is necessary for my life. Writing something might suit my nature. Ah, once a person said to me that "You must run away by writing from your reality". That was true. I tried to run away from the cruel reality by writing various things. Now writing becomes the solution to various problems. I would keep on writing things as usual.
I read Shigeo Goto's "skmt Who is Ryuichi Sakamoto". In this book, Ryuichi Sakamoto talks about himself as a changeable thing, not a static thing that should be the same every time, and express his thoughts straightly even if they could change drastically. That was impressive. Me, I sometimes have been confused because I try to be true to myself. If today's ideas I have are different from yesterday's ones, it would be difficult from making them the same. I guess that Ryuichi Sakamoto might be a kind of 'schizo kid'. Sometimes we might need to 'run away' from old ourselves as Akira Asada says.
This evening, I attended the online meeting and learned the 'speech act'. Various cultures these are coming from various peoples as the Japanese, Thai, and Chinese. And also the characteristic speech act from them. If we made mistakes or be late from promises, there could be a culture that lets them apologize easily, but also another one that lets them not apologize. This might be related to Japanese characteristic phenomena such as 'poor apologizing' or 'poor negotiation'. Then, learning from other countries or cultures make the chance of reflecting our culture or communication itself. I could understand the meaning of learning English, therefore I could learn one thing exactly.