I worked early today. This morning, during my work, I thought about this question. "Why do I read books? What roles do they do for me?" In other words, are books basically true friends (like my real friends), or are they pots full of ideologies I must copy completely?
As for me, through this life, I had to experience plenty of traumatic events. My classmates taught me that I must have been wrong completely because I was crazy for them, even though from my viewpoint they were strange to me. I even thought "Why can they believe in such foolish things as common sense? (For example, why can they love such banal arts as their favorites?) And, whether they can trust their tastes or not, why can't they allow me to love my tastes as they do? Shouldn't I have the right to declare what things I am loving actually?
When I was young and soft enough, I tried to obey/follow others' "common" senses. As a result, I could have learned some of their beliefs because simply I found I had been wrong (without any irony, I write this because I want to say I am just imperfect). But, about certain things as the taste of music or books, in me, something remained as mosses on the surface of the stone.
During that sad/lonely period as hell, only books and music were true friends for me which faced me honestly/sincerely. Other classmates always taught me I must have been wrong, therefore as the first step of reading books, I asked two questions myself, "Why can I be wrong? What things can I learn from this book to become a better person?" and "Why can they be wrong? What things can I keep my beliefs/opinions stronger than them?"
Those two questions are still the ones I try to keep on asking me even now... By asking those, I try to stand out from the bias in me. And it is one of the important purposes for me to keep on reading books. Through that trial, reading books affords me many vivid chances of noticing something important. And, although this must sound too "bigmouth", I say the strength/intensity of my thinking is getting stronger because of my serial readings every day... What do you think?
