BGM: Bjork - All is Full Of Love
This morning, I went to see the facility manager of my group home. I sent him a certain money to pay the rent. After that meeting, I joined the morning meeting as we do on Wednesdays. This time, we each members tried to use two idioms to make one sentence. Indeed, it was a little bit difficult for me to make it, but it was interesting. Kawamata san, the host said that they are worrying about me because they actually read my journal. I said that (although I think this is never "correct" expression) I decided to work partially, rest partially. I've been feeling that it is really pleasant, really glad for me to learn their concerning.
After that meeting, I went to the library to borrow Walter Benjamin's book. After that, I went to AEON to have lunch. After having it, I tried to read any book. But I couldn't anything so moved myself to see what books are there in the bookstore. And I found that there were J. D. Salinger's "Franny and Zooey" and also Tatsuya Mori's book about massacre, so I bought them. Returning to my group home, I started reading Mori's one.
In that book, Mori describes various killing in that book about massacre. His keen, cool logic and warm style tries to explain why/how the human race (including me) can do such cruel, inhuman actions. As I have written in this journal, I had been bullied at schools. But, although I have been a victim of that kind of mass violence, I could be controlled by a certain irrational movement by mass/mob psychology. He tries to connect school bullying and massacre as the same irrational action, and it makes me impressed.
This evening, I enjoyed the "danshu" meeting. At there, the leader said to us that his honest emotion/opinion. It is really pleasant for him to get older eventually (because, at last he has been able to live his life steadily, actually with a sober mind.) I can see his feeling. Now I can live my life actually, "gripping" its actual shape. After that, I attended the meeting about Haruki Murakami's novel. OH MY GOODNESS! Today I've written a lot.