BGM: Massive Attack feat. Sinéad O'Connor - What Your Soul Sings
It was a day off today. This morning I had a meeting of English learning on ZOOM. This time we made our various sentences with using the phrase "be capable of". Every member showed their ones as "I am capable of teaching Japanese chess", "I am capable of turning the belly button inside out", and "I am capable of seeing the future". From these sentences, we could enjoy various topics as small talks. I enjoyed them a lot. And my turn came so I worried about that, but I made the example "I am capable of writing my poetry". Then, the other members showed their deep interest in that. I could learn the other's comments as the readers. A person recommended me publishing my own collection of poetry. He suggested to publish an e-book. And he told us how it could be by his own experience of his actual publishing... and I thought that I wanted to publish my collection as a kindle on Amazon with the cheap price (about 100 yen). Of course, if I tried to publish my collection actually, I would have to enrich my collection. So I need to write more and more steadily. This meeting was for me the time to confess our dreams and future, therefore I have been glad to have that.
This afternoon, after having the lunch I met my parents at 2 pm. And my job coach, the facility manager of my group home, and another person from the city office and we started a meeting. The purpose of that meeting was to get rid of my parents' worries about me. "How could my son's future be?" and "How does he want to do in the future?". The job coach prepared a lot of great materials for this meeting, and showed them to my parents. About how does the company (the top of it or my bosses) treat me, or how does the job coach think about my working... I am glad to hear that I could hear the honest opinions from them. I talked about the plan for my future to my parents. If I tried to work as a regular employee, I would have to endure the pressure of "bringing other co-workers up" and "working longer". I can never endure that kind of hardship (my job coach agreed with this). I want to keep on doing this lifestyle, and also want to support the foreigners in my town through the activities of this city's International Association. It is my dream. But what kind of actual job would it be? An interpreter? Anyway, I want to be a bridge, and connect the city's people and the foreigners. I talked this to my parents.
During the meeting, at that cafeteria, I thought "it had been here about 8 years ago" with having an ice tea. "From here, the life I have been enjoying as an autistic person started... Everything began from this place". The day... I was 40 years old (I think). The owner had said to me that "We will have a meeting about autism, so why don't you join us?". So I went to this cafeteria with having nothing... and I met the job coach by chance. After that, we built the self-help group about autism, and also I had tried to live in a shared house... after those trials, I could start living in my current group home. When I was a heavy drinker, I had drank a lot at my parents house therefore they should feel sad. But now, I can have found my tiny, but precious dream. To be a bridge, and publish my collection of poetry as a book (e-book, or a "doujin"). My parents showed their interests in this journal so I sent the links (this journal blog, and also my poetry blog) to them. I thought that a lot of people accept my writing. They support me eventually... I am really happy.
This evening I started using ZOOM and had a meeting again. This time I enjoyed a person's presentation about the "citizen science". He has enjoyed astronomical observation, and he introduced his story which taught us that his data of observation had been used by the magazine "Nature". The topic went to the fact that some internet users as Audrey Tang, an ex-hacker, shares his creations as the sources of programs for the collaboration or studying together. I remembered some people who had kept on their own working with the spirits and wilderness as amateurs. I enjoyed myself... By the way, suddenly a member said to me "BTW, you look really slimmer... because of this hot summer?". She must worry about me, so I appreciate her kindness deeply. TBH I was told that this year my weight got 63 kg. Last year it had been about 70 kg... but the staff and the doctor say to me that "it is not from any serious illness". I have never done any diligent exercises... I have walked about 10,000 steps per day as my working. Does it effect my weight?
