Today I worked late. This morning I read Mayumi Mori's "Earthquake Journal". This is a diary that was written by the author a year after Great East Japan Earthquake. It can become a package of that era's atmosphere, therefore it is really a good job. TBH I can remember nothing about that earthquake (in Japan we often call it "3.11"). For me, that era was a serious period because I was really a terrible heavy drinker. But this book, this work certainly gives me a chance to remember the crisis we exactly had to experience. Indeed, I have a few different opinions of her ones, but it's a great job for me.
I found a book and thought of buying it through Amazon. Once, I would buy that with a click rapidly. TBH I am a "shopping-addicted" person, and once I had to shoulder many troubles because I bought some books to fill my desire without thinking deeply. But this time I could save myself. I sent a LINE message to my staff of the group home. Indeed, I got an extra "bonus" money, but I bought my gloves or had to attend the "farewell 2022" party so certainly am losing it. Oh my gosh, I can't save money successfully. I want to check Shinji Aoyama's diary's second volume, so I would still have to live a poor life.
Indeed, I can't save money. But (as I wrote this) this way is the one I chose. The leader said at the 'danshu' meeting that it was a misunderstanding that if I could go to a better university and join any great company then I could become successful, therefore a happy person. Happiness is a really ordinary life. I think so too. Yes, ordinary days... I can have meals, do various activities on the internet, and sleep enough. These ordinary days contain happiness. I feel that deeply because Mayumi Mori's book reminded me of the panic at the Great East Japan Earthquake.
Mayumi Mori quotes Miran Kundera and tries to talk about the priority of recording, and keep on remembering. This diary of mine is also the product of recording my ordinary days steadily. I never thought of big ambition, but just I wanted to share my daily life with my friends who live in Japan or any other country. That trial has been kept on by today. I can remember various things during this process, but the days go on. 2022 ends... I hope this trial would have a great meaning. Yes, I often feel troublesome because I write this every day, but writing this is for me an important activity.