BGM: matryoshka - Beyond
How should be the internet for me? Is it only a virtual thing (therefore just a kind of fake one)? Or it must mean another reality? Recently I am thinking about this, because the internet struggle (hustle) is simply annoying for me. Indeed, I have been helped by the network as an user, a netizen. For example, even now I often learn the news/info of various interesting books, movies, and music. But also, the net is for me a really chaotic world which has been created by a lot of people's screwing desire (therefore, in a way, I say it is really, purely lovely.)
This morning, I went to AEON to see my mother. We went to the corner to buy a coat. After the shopping, we talked for a while. I have to say this with a certain shameful emotion - even now, I can't have become any rich, great business person (at least, I am walking along a way of my life as an ordinary, normal person). But, as you know (I believe), I can have achieved becoming as this person who has been quitting alcohol for about 9 years. I also have worked at the company for over 20 years. That's what I can have been proud - And, as you see, my mother praised that effort of mine surely. Oh, it has been a graceful event for me (or for us.)
As a clear, really simple fact - I was given a chance of being here by my parents. And also, this point of view of mine has been built/created by various people. It means that I must have been living with others actually, not alone... In a way, I have been effected/influenced by you, and other people. Today I have read Danilo Kis's novel (ダニロ・キシュ『庭、灰』.) It is amazing for me, and the novel has taught me about how graceful my parents have been.
On WhatsApp, I learned that there were two explosions in Iran. Oh, what a terrible beginning of the year. I pray for the people who have been facing their hardships by these events - About the earthquake in our country, a lot of people show us their kindness. As I have said, we must not have been isolated - As I have written above, this network can have a certain power which can bind us tightly, intimately.
