BGM: Lou Reed - Walk On The Wild Side
This morning I used Twitter a little and found that something was wrong with it so many users got confused. I remember that once I was soaked in Twitter and did it every day. Now I think that Twitter is just one of the social media I belong to, so I can use it at a certain distance, not being addicted to relatively. If I couldn't use Twitter, I would use Facebook and Discord, and more, I would choose the real. I live with no money and am full of free time, in other words, I live an "ultra" slow life. I am certainly getting closer to the stage of "ria-jiu". "Ria-jiu" is Japanese internet slang but difficult to say what it is in English. It doesn't have any positive meaning but is used with jealousy and some kind of tough irony. My friends suggested that I can use "normie" to describe it.
I came back to this town from my parent's house and went to Aeon because today was also a day off. I enjoyed Stevie Wonder's music and got relaxed there. Once I had a huge anger or resentment in my house. It was the one my father built with the money he had got when he retired from his job. I wouldn't build my house because I am basically so poor. I can remember that my father said to me "when I was young as you, I could do something, etc.". After that, my father changed his opinion and understood my autism so I have no anger with it, but my house was certainly the cause of my curse on the world so I hated staying my home. Ah, I drank a lot in that house dreaming of getting out there. I can remember that I had a rotten mind in my 20s and 30s like that. It was a long time ago...
This afternoon I enjoyed Shinji Miyadai and Yukiko Hayami's book "Cipher Awake!" with Sam Prekop's music. As I wrote once, I read Shinji Miyadai's books and was almost a believer or follower of him. They talked about the sublime thing and also tried to explain how touching the world beyond our society can be important. It would be placing ourselves in a world that is larger than society, and identifying "us in a world" or "us for ourselves" beyond "in the society". My understanding is that identifying ourselves like that can empower our core, and therefore we can be so tough that anything can't blow us. The identity that isn't moved easily by any situation. Me, I feel the music of Fishmans and Sonny Rollins is quite a sublime thing, and that might be because I exactly felt their concept of "cipher", or the ultimate wonder of being myself in a world.
This evening I attended the online meeting and learned how to face when we were in the emergency state by the disaster. The person who actually had experienced the training talked about what we would need in that emergency state on the base of that experience. I think about the earthquake in Turkey or the earthquake which happened in our region once (it is called Great Hanshin-Awaji Earthquake). Attending that kind of training would make our knowledge version up, and also make us slimmer to move easily. I think that I would need water, food, glasses, and the medicine I usually take every day. But I might choose Junichiro Tanizaki's paperback, especially "The Makioka Sisters" beside them... When we were in that kind of state, we could use that paperback to clean our bodies after the bathroom I guess... What do you think?
