BGM: Donald Fagen - I.G.Y.
This morning, a Discord user asked me this. "Do you think Japan is depressing?". It is an interesting, unique question for me because I certainly feel that the life in Japan must be so severe and hard that we need various solution to keep our mind normal. The Liberal Democratic Party leads this country for a long time (although they once stepped out from the main stage once), but our future seems still blur and unclear. We have been into a huge, deep confusion and struggle so sometimes can wish a strong charisma like Audrey Tang from Taiwan... As you know, I am never a pro critic or intellectual. But I tried to answer his/her question as honestly as I can.
While writing this answer on my memo pad, I thought that this must be one of my meanings of this life. My answers can be poor, but someone surely needs that so I try to share. Once I wrote about my decision in this journal. To be a bridge between this town and the world... That says I can have achieved a great change in my mind because once I had a strong suspicious mind toward the world. Everyone must be a mal one... From those traumatic days, I have walked until here.
And... I remembered Audrey Tang again. Yes, she must have a great, graceful smartness for us, ordinary people. But from my viewpoint, she always has taught us that "you must be a hero who can save this world as a volunteer, a fighter". Yes, the main character of your life is always you. At least, I read her books like that. I need to read her books once again to think about the Japan country's (and the Japanese people's) future.
I say this kind of positive answers. But, I also admit that I must be a tiny person... and I'm basically satisfied with that. Maybe I should have a stronger confidence to live a richer life. Maybe... Today a friend asked me about alternative life. If I were not an autistic person? If I were able to get a better job? Maybe it would be better... but, I love this life. C'est la vie!
