BGM: INXS - New Sensation
Recently I can't get enough time to enjoy reading, therefore I couldn't have read Shuntaro Tanikawa's another collection of poetry. Today I worked early, and after that I wrote a poem at the lunchtime. I can see that my poetry archive has been enriched. How many poems will I be able to collect? Indeed, my mood is not stable so it will become "I will stop it because it is really troublesome", but now I am thinking "I want to keep on writing as long as possible" and "I hope I could make only one collection of poetry". A female friend draws her pictures, so I think how about using one of her work as its front cover... I even try to think about the title of my poetry collection (of course, I have to write the content!). I am the type of thinking its "outside", its "package" of my work, not thinking its "content". Like thinking the name of my rock band, not making its songs. In addition to, I just copied other people's work as "sampling", but all I just have done was just doing the imitation. Now, I am saying my name as "throbbing disco cat". This is from Takkyu Ishino's album's title. Not my original (Takkyu might think that he wants to beat me by his fist).
Once I was just an easy-going person who thought "All I want to do is just copying, not making my original". But that might be the creation, creative activity. At least, I am never a genius so I can't make any original works from nothing. I just do copy from other artists' masterpieces. I try to fit myself to the outer things. I train myself belong with outer rule like making myself by doing pushups or squats, or like young writers did their efforts of copying older writers' works or reading. During those copying, you find that your originality will appear from those imitation. Remember Haruki Murakami. He once tried to do the imitation of American literature, but his originality start sprouting from his writing (but you would say that he is "still" copying the great American literature. I can see what you would say). It is interesting that thinking about originality like that. We can see that it would be an unique expression if you try to do copying only, not relying on your originality. Andy Warhol's art, Pizzicato Five's music.
Now a lot of art can be seen within our archive. You can refer to easily. If you do googling, you can find its "sampling source". We are carrying a huge library within our pocket of the clothes or bags. Along with the currency of the era, poetry and literature must change. Although I am not a critic so I can't see how the change will go, but now we can find that "sampling" has become an usual of expression, not the way of expressing "Only professional audiences can understand what he/she tries to say" and "Great audience only". How can we think of "completely unknown/unseen things" and "enigmatic things"? Oh no, my "sleepy head" starts working if I think about this kind of creation actually. Theodor Adorno said that "Writing poetry after Auschwitz is barbaric". I believe that people like us need poetry and literature as our "soul foods". Indeed, Adorno criticizes that those poetry and literature must become any "commercial items", therefore they must become "mild" things and lose their "thorns" to criticize our reality. But I need the time and space to discuss about this issue. I run away from this topic. Sorry!
After today's work, I wrote my poems on the notebook again. I went to the English conversation class to learn the "expressions and slang" (today's lesson was different from ones we usually have). We learn how slang the English people have. For example, "chill/chilling" and "vibe/vibing", etc. We also learn some idioms, as "the tip of the iceberg" and "Strike while the iron is hot". After that the students started showing how slang and idioms they have known. In Japanese, we use "Kami (this means 'God')" often as "Kamitteru", "Kami taiou". I remembered that "a bookworm" and "Time is money", and also the writing words of "Lmfao" and "Lol". I thought I could write a poem based on the knowledge of slang I got from today's lesson. I also want to go to the library and borrow a collection of sonnets... Cynical people would say that "Writing your poor poetry after Shakespeare is foolish". But I move actively, maybe because of autism. I just try to think it's OK because I can't control anyone else.
