BGM: BarbWalters - Love
It was a day off today. The monthly day for the hospital. This morning I went to the hospital to see the doctor, and talked about my condition. I got the same medicines today too, and we talked about almost the same topics. No drastic progress or withdraw. Anyway, no trouble. After that, I got some medicines and went to AEON. At there, I finished reading Kotaro Sawaki's "246" completely. Although I can always feel that I listen to Jazz from his books while reading, Today I thought that Jazz wouldn't fit me. So I chose some tunes of the playlist "Future Funk" roughly on Spotify. I have been soaked into various funny and fascinating tunes like toys in a box. Especially I love a tune which contains the sampling of Scritti Politti's "Absolute", so I thought I would enjoy this tune during this hot summer. Indeed, I can live only one summer of my 48. But I will spend that precious summer with working and reading without any vacation. In addition to them, this year I would try to keep on making my own poetry day by day.... But anyway, it would become a barren, uncool summer time. I want to change the books to read at least. I should read the "heavy" books as Malcolm Lowry's "Under The Volcano", or just try to choose any "transparent" ones as Richard Brautigan's "Trout Fishing in America".
I had lunch, and wrote yesterday's journal I couldn't have written in this morning because I didn't have enough time. After that, I started Natsuki Ikezawa's "Comfort of Poetry". This book is a collection of his critical essays about global poetry (from Shakespeare, Shuntaro Tanikawa, Junzaburo Nishiwaki, and modern poets). I have been impressed by this because he is really a great activist about writing. Indeed, there have been many activists in the history of Japanese literature. Souseki Natsume, Ougai Mori, Shimei Futabatei... A lot of intellectuals who had moved beyond the borders on this planet. I respect Natsuki because he has kept on having his open mind to this world without having any frustration for the foreign countries (especially Europe). Therefore he can learn a lot from various countries' culture. Not only America and Europe's cultures, but also minor countries' unique and rich ones. Although I have some different opinions from his point of view of politic or literature, I want to follow such modest and decent attitude of him. I want to read his novels again.
After that reading, I started writing my poem. On writing, I thought that I was doing a "poem-making", not "creating any poem". Maybe my poems aren't made by pure gold, but some pieces of plastic. Therefore they must be cheap... I wrote about that in my new poem. But, I believe that that kind of cheap poems must have their own taste. On X (ex-Twitter), I can read many opinions about "Barbee" and "Oppenheimer". Although I have not learned about that topic deeply, I think about the phenomenon of the "memes". Any serious events could be digested by that kind of expression of "memes", an interesting and wild way of creation (Of course, I doubt that kind of violently funny way of expression). Once a friend of mine had posted a meme about Hitler, and I said to him "I guess it should be prohibited". But, although this could be controversial, that kind of memes of Hitler could be the resistance against Fascism? I think that making memes about politic can be the great, marvelous messages to this world, not ending as any interesting ones instantly.
The evening came but I wanted to do nothing. I tried to sleep soon, but I couldn't. Maybe because I had had a nap in this afternoon... So I read Hisaki Matsuura's essays partly. In this book, Hisaki writes how wonderful to carry Junzaburo Nishiwaki's poetry paperback in our pocket. I am the man who thinks thick books as bricks would bring me a great time to read, therefore I enjoy Fernando Pessoa's thick masterpiece "The Book Of Disquiet". But indeed, to carry some portable paperbacks of poetry and essays and read them at various places would be interesting. Recently I had carried Kotaro Sawaki's "246", but Kenji Miyazawa7s or Sakutaro Hagiwara's poems collection could be also nice... I want to have any great books as my "soul foods" or "home ground". Me, that kind of book can be Rilke's "The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge". But I also want to read Dickens, Conrad, and Faulkner, It could be the key to the future for me... The day ends. Hot summer goes on... the autumn will come to us sooner than usual?
