BGM: The Doobie Brothers - Listen To The Music
Recently, I have enjoyed Eels' album "Electro-Shock Blues" again. Eels is a solo project of the person Mark Oliver Everett aka E. I have listened to this "Electro-Shock Blues" in/during this life. Especially when I was in really troublesome period, the time I thought "I should give up anything" and "I can't go forward anymore", I relied on that great music... I am not a music journalist so I can't explain his music/this album itself with a critical/journalistic perspective. But I say that this music is really "impressive". This album describes in its beginning a scene of bathroom. in the bathroom, Elizabeth is lying on the floor. She says "My life is shit and piss". But if this music ended just describing this depressive scenery, then it would mean that this music could be just a banal one. A commercially poisonous, negative, catchy one, and so on... I say this album is not such a banal one. I want YOU to enjoy this because YOU are the person who has been living in YOUR troublesome days like hell. This will give you an energy to walk forward.
Indeed, you might find a certain heaviness in this album. The distorted heavy sound of bassline. Various experimental pop sound with pieces of instruments. E's husky and warm voice... It wouldn't be touchy for you I guess. YOU would find that YOU could go out from a nightmare with listening to this album, which has been made to "knock" your spots in mind which give you comfortable feeling. Or just like going out of the state of bad tripping, or the dawning from the night little by little... YOU must feel that the sunlight is coming through this album. This one leads you to a brand new hope/new life. But it doesn't mean a positive, brutal message that "Dreams must come true so let's be positive". At first, YOU see desperate darkness in the beginning of this album. And from that bottom of the deep sea, YOU will move to the surface steadily. That kind of movement from darkness to lightness, or from hell to this world is really "trippy" event. So I love this album so much. But why? Why the person E can do such a magical playing/singing/creating? He must be a genius, or a soul master, or a charisma. At least, this "Electro-Shock Blues" must be one of the masterpieces in 90s rock music. An evergreen, everlasting shining.
And I find that E is a really "soulful" and "warm hearted" person when I enjoy this album. He accepts me, the person who always feels pitiful emotion (I almost used a controversial word "sissy"). Like he holds/hugs me a lot... I also feel that he has a certain great sense of humor. The mixture of serious essences and humorous ones. Not too positive, but also too hypocritic. In other words, I never feel any essence of "fake" in this album. A really honest one. Me, I was recently said by a friend as "your sense of humor is great". But maybe that is because I have been actually influenced by E's such wonderful works/masterpieces. E also has made various albums in his career. He has never failed making them. E is the person who always has lived his hurtful/terrible life. But he sees the world with his clear eyes, and sings by his hot voice, facing forward and saying "Oh my gosh" but "I'm gonna live". Yes, maybe this world is like hell and our life is like chaos... But the life has a certain value to enjoy living. His life has such a strong line as a great career, and it embraces me a lot. 90s is a decade that has great artists as Nirvana, Beck, Blur, Oasis, Suede, etc... But Eels is also a great one. Eels is as great as them. I even say that E must be underrated.
Oh my... I can remember that I had written about suicide a lot yesterday. And also today I wrote a lot of negative ideas about Eels' music. Indeed, I like Nine Inch Nails and Marylin Manson to hurt myself mentally/virtually in my bedroom. But somewhere in my mind I try to believe in the power of humor listening to great artists as Eels (By the way, I even can feel that Nine Inch Nails also has great humor). Probably I have been attracted by Haruki Murakami because of Haruki's profound humor. And also, when I write this journal I say to myself like this. "Why should I write a lot of negative, painful, depressive content which also could hurt readers?". In other words, I have a mentality/personality of "a fool". A fool in Shakespeare's plays... Or I must be a pierrot, or a clown. And also a true masochist... Oh my. I talked about myself too much (as usual).
A friend recommended me to make this "carrd". I show this to you.