跳舞猫日録

Life goes on brah!

2023/02/23 English

BGM: Hiroshi Fujiwara - Natural Born DubToday I worked early. This morning I enjoyed Hiroshi Fujiwara's album ”Hiroshi Fujiwara In Dub Conference”. It has powerful, but elegant beats and sensitive piano tones so was impressed me a lot. It was when I was a college student that I met this album. At that time, I thought this one was a kind of Japanese city pop called "Shibuya-Kei". In other words, it was a symbol of sophisticated and beautiful urban life. As I wrote before, that city life would be so far apart from this ultra countryside life in Shiso city I lived, therefore it could give me an entertaining life and never was boring. Now I have a different thought. Even though living in Shiso, I can enjoy Hiroshi Fujiwara's music's universal beauty, and also Shiso city has a lot of cheerful friends so I can enjoy funny life with them. I certainly feel that every day.

As I wrote this, at the period of trying to pass the exam of university, I never imagined that I would go to Tokyo, especially brilliant Waseda university. But my elder brother, who already had lived in Tokyo, recommended me that "ho about coming to Tokyo?" so I just thought it would be pleasant to learn how Tokyo was, and tried Waseda. It was a kind of memorial event for me, but I passed so started my campus life. People might see that it is jearous, but all I just can say is that there was no pleasant memories in that life. At the life in Tokyo, I was always confused by the comlicated subway system, the communication with the person next to my room, and also I had to do a lot of systematic things to learn in my campus. So it was a miracle that I could graduate there for just 4 years. Even from now, it was just like a dream or delusion far from here. It was really a hard period.

But one of the things I could received from that Waseda life was that I could touch and learn the internet by using computers the university had. I have been a fan of Motoharu Sano, a Japanese popular rock star, and learned that he had started communicating with fans rapidly. That was the reason I got a mail address from the university and started using the internet… and about 30 years passed! I have experienced some battles and flamings online, and also been criticized by anonimous users. Me, once I was into the idea of how I should "sell" my name, so I might be a scandalous person like Yusuke Narita... Oh my! Today is a day for old tales. Anyway, I was just a foolish "wasedaman" who has never sang the school anthem, but I admit that what I learned from Waseda has been still a part of me.

This evening, I read Robert Harris's book "Aphorism" to the presentation I will do the next month. Aphorism means short phrases which supports someone's life and thought. Just like The Beatles' phrase "Let It Be". My favorite aphorism is the one in this book. "Life is God's Novel. Let Him Write it". Looking back to my life, as the event of entering Waseda I wrote above tells me, everything has been decided beyond my ability. Even my work has been the one the doctor had recommended me that "try to return to the society for half a year", and also I quit alcohol because of headache. I met precious friends, and that let me keep on learning English. I was always "blown" by the wind. How God would write the story about myself? I hope he would write how I could the next soul mate.