BGM: 大江千里 - 塩屋
Today I worked late. This morning, the snowing scene surprised me. Judith had opened her room on clubhouse but I couldn't attend it. It seems that a certain routine of the late day is building in me. I shouldn't hurry up with the spirit of "take it easy", and start changing clothes with Senri Oe's music. Not relying on deep or hard songs, but trying Senri Oe's natural tones which fit my emotion seems good to me. Especially, his "Shioya(塩屋)" fits my awkward emotion well. It has a certain warmth which is good for the great beginning of a day, and I feel that this song always helps me. I also like his song "MAN ON THE EARTH". Now I can enjoy his world which I couldn't understand because I was too young. In summer, I want to enjoy his masterpiece "OLYMPIC".
I read Haruki Murakami's "At Murakami san's place" which was just read in its halfway. A fan asked a question to Haruki Murakami, which was "Why do the people who love reading books read them?" I was interested in this question. Haruki answered that reading books means going to another world or passing through "great stories" and it impresses me. Probably I could answer this question as "I'm bored" and that's all I guess. Haruki seems to believe in the power of "stories" basically and certainly. I think that Haruki's novels became the ones that contain delicious taste as "stories" (especially from his "A Wild Sheep Chase"), and that's the same as his recent works. Is the new novel coming on this April a new "story"? I can't wait for it.
On another question about how to act when we experience hard events, Haruki answers that "we might have to hold that hardship". Now, in Japan, great internet intellectuals such as Takafumi Horie or Hiroyuki would make a brief solution to that kind of hardship. This society would need that kind of instant solution. But I guess that facing the wound we made and learning how I am weak or strong would be needed. Me, learning about autism and also thinking about my limit, noticing that I never am almighty, having a depression, and swallowing that sickness to become strong... all of them become my certain power. Indeed, the instant solution might be ideal before the problems get complicated. But then we need to go out and connect with someone else. In myself, learning myself and connecting with others isn't paradoxical... it is quite complicated!
Today I had a meeting with my job coach. I can't write what we talked about but it was a great one. At my breaking time, I found on Spotify that some of the albums of Morphine, which is one of my favorite bands, are available now. It surprised me a lot so I enjoyed them. Their music was really great, and it reminded me of "Twin Peaks" or Lou Reed. Quite wild and sexy. In my 20s, I used to read a Japanese major music magazine "Rockin' On" and noticed that Morphine was always in a corner of it. They showed a certain brilliance, but at that period I was still into fresh bands like Blur and Oasis so I couldn't understand their coolness and greatness. They are truly underrated so I hope you enjoy their music if you like.