BGM: スピッツ - 渚
I talked about Haruki Murakami's coming book which Haruki would publish this April at the server where Haruki fans gather. The members started talking about that. Foreign fans try to translate Japanese news about it through various machinic translations into English and begin a discussion. Haruki's next book would have a length of "1200" papers. Someone asked me what did the "1200" mean and I could answer nothing. Foreign countries don't have the culture of measuring novels' length with how many papers those novels are written I guess. So I said, "In Japan, authors have the tradition of measuring the length of novels' with how many papers they use". Anyway, I already get excited about Haruki's coming book.
Today was a day off. I went to the library and borrowed George Orwell's books and Haruki Murakami's "At Murakami san". I am not a morning person and today was not a fine day. I felt sad and thought "I shouldn't work hard today". With Peter Gabriel's music, I read that "At Murakami san". This book is based on the concept that Haruki answers every email from all over the country, or all over the world (He is really international!). Haruki's answers are relaxed and mild, so this book has a kind of chitchat or great healing touch. Sometimes I want to read this kind of book to refresh my mind.
Quoting from one of those emails, Haruki answers the mail which says "I don't like myself well". "YOU are in the attitude or way of thinking about how you think about other things". I was impressed because I thought it was profound (these emails remind me of a legendary Japanese author Souseki Natsume's essay about his reader). We don't have to look at ourselves because it would bring us a certain confusion. We should drink a cup of coffee and listen to Kicell to get relaxed. That relaxed mood might contain the real ourselves. This idea would suggest Shinji Miyadai, a Japanese sociologist's opinion "From meanings to intensity". Not trying to ask the meaning of "why?", Just enjoy the intensity of "pleasant (although it would be meaningless)".
This evening I went to the "danshu" meeting and talked about my recent episode there. A new member I once wrote came there again. I talked about the English conversation class. Although once I learned English literature at a university, I just thought it was nonsense to learn something in my 20s seriously. After that, I started working but I also thought it was meaningless. I drank a lot and that's all even if young ages should be used as the process of sowing seeds to our later stage. My life has ended, the time is wrong, and I am a loser... those emotions were friendly to me. I confess that I don't have any great career. I am still single and a kind of real "loser". But at least, I am not a loser beaten by me. The new member might decide to step up her life to live again I guess. It must need an act of courage. Then, I want to follow the new member to go forward in my life. It's my pleasure.