BGM: Sting - Fields Of Gold
Today is a day off. This morning I wrote this diary as usual. A reader said to me "you should spread this diary more". Yes, I'm glad to hear that. But, maybe I am too optimistic, but I believe that it would be delivered from one reader to others naturally if it was such a brilliant one (of course, I say with "if"). I don't have to do any advertisement... or this might be from a fatal mistake I made. Once I tried to let other people know how my writing was (I even lost precious friends by that). I don't want to make others understand by any force, but I want to let them enjoy naturally, with an easy mind... and I want to gain readers one by one, step by step. I wouldn't be bigger, but it's OK. I am never Haruki Murakami. I would end as a nameless blogger, but that's a life.
This morning I attended an online meeting on ZOOM. It's a meeting about autism we have once a month. In this time, I was told that our own website will start from the basis of this meeting. TBH I am a contributor of that site. I think of what I will write onto that site if it will be realized. My diary (Japanese and English) is OK?... A friend from that meeting opens his YouTube videos actively, and they would be shared by that site (I can't have checked them). Our dreams are getting bigger. I want to write book reviews onto that sight, and want to share the link of my Discord server, and more... Oh my gosh! I am having selfish wishes too much. Yes, this kind of too huge delusion or dreams are one of my bad habits.
Afternoon, after a nap, I finished reading Haruki Murakami's "The Town and Its Uncertain Walls" finally. This would work as a fatal spoiler, but I say that this novel is based on the situation of "Hard-Boiled Wonderland and the End of the World". But "the town", which was once a thing the main character owned only, in other words which was just a personal thing of him, appears a thing which can be shared by others in this new novel. If I read this "the town" as an "unconsciousness", then it would be connected by the idea of the "collective unconscious"... but I have never learned Carl Jung and Hayao Kawai so I can't proceed this idea more. Oh my! Or the noticing of the fact that I and other are sharing the same real would lead us to the question "is this reality single?" (it's a really actual "post Trump" question). Indeed, this novel never has any YouTube or TikTok, so it is old-fashioned. But the core is still "modern" and "actual". Haruki is certainly trying to make his version newly.
The evening, I attended another ZOOM meeting to learn English. Through watching a foreign comedy show, we learned vivid English. This might sound as a stereotype, but I couldn't understand fully because it was too fast (but I want to be thankful for this chance). I have to learn my limit again. But the mood of that meeting was really funny, therefore I felt cozy mood. Ah, once I strictly believed that my English skill must be terrible, but that skill is actually helping me like this. That's really glad to me. I don't have alternative talent, but that skill of learning languages is exactly in me. That is adding my life beautiful colors... By the way, I tried to make a playlist for Haruki Murakami's "The Town and Its Uncertain Walls". This is, at least for me, a trial. Therefore it became a kind of "selfish" one with full of my bias, but I hope you will enjoy this as a pleasure.