BGM: The Doobie Brothers - What A Fool Believes
Today, I thought about quitting my job again. I have been, in a way, haunted by this kind of idea. Once I had thought that "what if I had ended my life by myself?" and, now I think "what if I quit my job?". Both cases are the same as imagining if I had not been in my workplace anymore. But it could be any smart solution? I should find the way how to survive in there, or in my life as the main character.
This lunchtime I created this memo in English again. It is for me like enjoying puzzles. Although I have been feeling badly because of this stressful workplace like an irrational hell, I can find any good mood in me by that solution.
What happened today? I couldn't tell my will to my co-workers because it wasn't accepted as a good idea. They always say so. "You are not related to that section, so you shouldn't say anything to them". It seems in their minds it can be a really firm "automatic" thinking style. They seem stopping thinking anymore if I start telling them. How should I do? I should try to think they are just idiots like robots?
No... Sorry, I am saying too much. I need to respect them because it wouldn't be like this if they had said no to the idea of approving job coaches in my workplace. But then, is it a worse idea for me to listen to their honest opinions about me? I want to tell them more about our work. Today I found three mistakes.
And... I have been thinking how to use the skill of my English in my work. Indeed, I need to learn more (I ALWAYS have to keep on learning). Today I found a few foreign people who enjoy their time in my workplace. How could I help them by my English? No! I need to stay calm. DON'T LOSE THE CALMNESS. They might not be speak English. It is possible.
This evening, I enjoyed the English class in my town. We did talking about any trips we had enjoyed. I said that every long vacation seasons I have to work (that's the fact of my work). I could enjoyed myself.