BGM: John Lennon - Woman
Today I worked late. As always, I attended to the English meeting on ZOOM of a Facebook group. We talked about smoking tobacco. Especially, how it can cost so much because of tax. I have never smoked in this life because my father had taught me not to smoke (my father also doesn't smoke, so my house doesn't have any ashtray). I have been getting the clue of spending morning time more comfortably with having that kind of meeting. Autistic people can live their life easily with their stable habits. That's the secret.
TBH... at last, I showed my novel "THINK TANK" in public. Although it will work dangerously because it shows my life too honestly, I can't endure the temptation of getting other people's honest opinions. Yes, I can't endure it anymore... I have to admit that I can't write a long, simple plot straightly. My mind/head looks like really messed up machine which outputs fragments cut up randomly. I just hope that it would help other people's understanding autism. How autistic people can think things, look at this world with their eyes.
Today I read 黒川創 "彼女のことを知っている" (Sou Kurokawa's "I know about her"). This novel has a really mild, soft voice as its style. TBH I have never read about MeToo even though I thought I should follow, so I will borrow the books about it. Yes, it is a great novel which has various actual problems.
For me, it is a "weird" novel certainly. If I tried to "criticize" this like a pro critic, it would be a too "brainy", "logical" novel. But this style only can shows how the people in that 60s era had lived as citizens honestly, steadily. It shows how the people, especially women had lived with having the ideal of feminism, and also doing sexes as one of the important issues in their life.
I remember that 黒川創 had written this novel in his 60s, but it shows how fresh his mind can be. Although this era has been said as "the 100-year life", this freshness must be a thing I should get surprised at.
