The strong typhoon comes seriously. The rain and storm get so strong that I can't go to my workplace, and I even can go out of this room. So I decided to quit today's work and 'stay home' relying on some instant meals I have bought for today. But I am so a tiny person that I can't see how to spend this time even if today I can do whatever I want to do, so this morning I did chatting with my friends on Discord and that's all. I am very thankful for the messages from foreign friends. I use Discord with no purpose, but always my friends give me power.
Staff from my group home bought us lunchboxes although the weather was terrible. Yes, I am also thankful for this. Luckily, the electricity didn't stop so I spent the day comfortably. Other friends called me on LINE or WhatsApp. This kindness from other people is very grateful to me. My mood changed this afternoon and I get recovered to the state I can read books, so I read Natsuki Ikezawa's "The Downfall of Matias Guili". TBH I read this novel when I was a high school student, but I forgot the content completely so I could enjoy it freshly.
I heard that this novel is influenced by Latin American literature. Exactly, this has amazing content of 'magical realism'. But I thought that I can see some Asian culture in this novel. That might be "Mono No Aware", or the emptiness that means any glorious people will go downward in the end. But that is our fate, so we have to accept 'now'. I felt this from this novel, but maybe I might misread it. I loved the main character Matias. A person who is just like a piece in the flow of the world... but I am also a piece. Yes, I am such a tiny thing. Then, I should laugh at myself and enjoy my destiny. This reminds me of Shakespeare or Emir Kusturica's movies.
This evening, I felt it was ridiculous because I just read books only today. I thought I would watch some documentaries, but I couldn't be serious about this idea and spent time wastefully. Ah, the late stage of my life would be spent by reading only... yes, this is just terrible. But this is also my nature. I read Yoshikichi Furui and Fernando Pessoa, and listen to Ryuichi Sakamoto's "CHASM" (nowadays I am into the song "undercooled". This song has very comfortable Korean spoken words). Far from any trendy topics and just into my tiny world... this is a retired life? But I won't say that I am bored with my life!