BGM: Pet Shop Boys - Go West
Recently I started enjoying the daily English meeting on Facebook. At there, various English learners (mostly they are Japanese) and I enjoy chatting with using English. Today, we talked about why and how we do start our learning English. I talked about my job. An employee of a store. From that viewpoint, I said that there are many foreign citizens in my town (of course, some of them are the customers). Even though they might not be able to speak English, I want to try to be a good interpreter between English and Japanese, and also give them good services. I enjoyed this meeting well.
And this morning, I enjoyed various music recklessly. Although I started enjoying Blur's "Think Tank", I changed it to the Jon Spencer Blues Explosion's "Orange". This is autism. My mood changes too quickly, too freely... without reflecting their contexts (maybe they are connected as the great music I enjoyed in my youthful days).
But... from my viewpoint, this world has a certain "reckless", "rapid" character. For example, this lunchtime I started enjoying listening to music again. Although I tried to listen to Blur's "Think Tank", the smartphone and Spotify suggest me different, chaotic items one by one. The Beatles' new song, Sly and The Family Stone, U2... the database is dumber than me? Is it just a sadistic system?
TBH... today I showed the first tiny piece (800 words) to a few friends of mine. Although it is written in Japanese, they read it and gave me their honest, heartful comments... I really appreciate it. This evening, I translated it into English by myself. As I wrote in this journal, it won't be a great novel as Haruki's or Ryu's ones. That's OK. I just write what I want.
And now... I am remembering the days I tried to write my own original novels. But I am too autistic therefore I couldn't think one thing honestly, steadily. Now, I won't be afraid of showing the fact how I am chaotic. Yes, my brain is full of "junk". Oh my!
