It was a day off today. This morning, at last I've read the travelogue "Midnight Express" by Koutarou Sawaki [沢木耕太郎『深夜特急』] completely. TBH I rarely enjoy travelling because I can't stand any rapid, drastic changes of everyday life. But this incredible work has made me having a certain desire of travelling somewhere nice. However, I also need to think about this fact - Sawaki finally found his final direction toward where/what he want to arrive/achieve. It is impossible for us to keep on travelling eternally (as this life itself.) Then, where will be my own life's the true "end/destination"?
This afternoon, as I had promised before, a friend of mine from Kyrgyz Republic and I enjoyed talking by voice call on WhatsApp. Although this offer from me was really sudden/spontaneous, she seemed enjoying this opportunity so I've been glad for that kindness. We used English to talk about various things as what activities I've been enjoying in recent days, what books I've been reading, the recent earthquakes in Japan, and my wishes toward a new life (although I don't have any plan of quitting the current job.) Before having this talking, I had become really, so seriously nervous but I could enjoy this time. Life goes on as this.
After that time, I went back to my group home. There, I had spent my time with doing really nothing (just stayed lying on my bed with a Japanese author Kazumi Saeki's public journal [佐伯一麦『麦の日記帖 震災のあとさき 2010-2018』].) And this evening, I went to the "danshu" meeting. There, I said to the other members this week's story of mine as a confession. About the English studying club's meeting I enjoyed last Sunday, and also the English class I also enjoyed yesterday.
When I was a heavy drinker, I had been diligently disappointed about/in my life. This boring, hopeless life would go forever and I must be truly powerless - but I am actually finding that I could have changed my life, or my personality itself even though I couldn't have changed the world itself. The chief of the meeting praised my confession, and he said that he couldn't enjoy reading therefore I must be a great person. But from my point/position, he must be really marvelous because he has always been managing this group toward a great direction. EVERY member of this group must be so great for me.
