BGM: New Order - Krafty
Although this is not rare for me, I thought that my life had ended this morning. I had no reason why. But, basically, I sometimes think about my English memo that "I could write until tomorrow, but today I might not be able to write!". This idea is almost the same as "Until yesterday the sun rose from the East, but today it might rise from the West"... (it is not crap from the viewpoint of philosophy, but actually it must be nonsense). I even thought that "I want to go back to my room and sleep", but when I started my work I could do it. Why can I work and write every day? This is the "eternal theme" for me.
Today I made a plan for the "Ochatto Room", which is the chance to enjoy communication with foreign residents, at Shiso International Association. At lunchtime, I thought of many ideas. About autism or the English conversation class we will have... in that room, we basically try to use English. I thought that I like expressing myself in English. As an employee in my company, I rarely use English so my skill isn't treated as important. But in other chances, my skill can work like this. Oh, that's life... I hear that my job coaches praise my English and it might work for me to create another possibility.
But I shouldn't think too much about that plan about what I will talk about. Communication is basically like a jam session in music. We can't say what will happen at that chance. We learn various things "after" sessions... autistic people have trouble with that kind of unseen communication. I started various meetings with the group about autism or another group, so I have "experienced" that kinds of unseen ones. So I can trust that experience in me. It would work... why "it would work"? Why? No reasons. But another skill which I can't identify would work and "it always rules"... really enigmatic.
This evening I attended the "Ochatto Room" and enjoyed the presentation from an English teacher at a junior high school in our city. We also made "mizuhiki", the main event. Making "mizuhiki" is really difficult because my fingers didn't move smoothly. I am not good at that work so I almost forgot the time. The teacher showed the amazing movements of her fingers, and it impressed me that the expert must be wonderful. I enjoyed myself. Returning to my room, I felt my head heated so decided to sleep. It's just from the lack of sleep every day. I am an old dude... 48! I must not eat oily meals and try to find "so-so" in my life.