BGM: Mouse on Mars "Saturday Night Worldcup Fieber"
Today I saw that Aeon sold the notebook for 2023. I thought about that year. How will it be? TBH I can't remember how I thought this year 2022 should be. So I read my diary again and found that I have to live steadily. "Just stop drinking today", spend every day peacefully, and build my future step by step. So I can't make any plans for the year after. Thinking the next year might be impossible for me. I spent today without any alcohol so felt thankful for it.
Once a guy from China said to me that "your life is too buddha". Because I have no interest in manga and anime. Yes, I spend my days reading and watching. Of course, I have some "evil" material desire. I admit that I need women, money, and delicious meals. I just don't want to be too greedy. I won't say that I give up that "evil" desire, but becoming too greedy would lose my current happiness I believe. So I am staying "buddha".
I remember that once I was a Twitter freak. I got hurt when I lose my follower. I even got panicked... why was I into Twitter so heavily? I can't see. Now I can feel that some friends are tender to me. There is a fine connection and that's enough for me now. Yes, I once wanted to be a famous Twitter user. Some people described me as "he is like a fool". Yes, I was really an idiot. Staying natural. That's OK. Yes, sometimes I read John Irving's novels.
This evening I watched Richard Curtis's movie "Love Actually". I found that the people I trust say this is a masterpiece. Indeed, it is a really well-made one. I describe this as "entertainment for adults". Just watching this makes me happy without any complicated thinking. Falling in love without concerning our ages, and loving someone must be natural. It suits the elegant mood at Christmas. Touching this kind of movie tells me "I might become an adult". In my opinion, this movie allows me to watch various characters as God or a bird's eye. A really sweet masterpiece.