BGM: Soul II Soul "Back To Life"
Today I worked late. This morning I couldn't feel fine, but I had to go to work so decided to do my routine as usual. I had breakfast, took a shower, and wrote my diary. I could feel that my mood went a little bit upper. Just I do what I should do, not relying on my mod too much. Just do my task at my work and in my private. That pushes me ahead. I can feel that. After that, I had time to watch the 3rd episode of the documentary about 9/11, "Turning Point" on Netflix.
I read Natsuki Ikezawa's "The End and the beginning 2.0". I had read this book once, but now I can have an impression that Natsuki Ikezawa teases us. But it won't that he heats us terribly and causes us to do something worse. I thought he just tries to ask us about Japanese and American politics and say "Don't you think something is wrong?". This asking is just from Natsuki Ikezawa's tenderness and seriousness. I shouldn't accept other peoples' opinions straightly but just think by myself.
I started writing my paper or my memo for the meeting we will have next Sunday. I want to talk about what I have learned from making my server on Discord. I couldn't remember why I had started using Discord, but I just had started joining various servers about language exchange to learn English, and enjoyed chatting with a lot of users in English. Then, I got to understand things globally beyond the wall of Japanese conversation. I want to tell my friends about this.
Finally, I could do my work today. It was enabled by the communication with friends I have met on Discord in that way. Many friends stay on my server and enjoy chatting. I have no leadership. Just a wishy-washy, weak person. But I am just trying to stay dutiful and serious. I want to accept this weak myself and stay honest about the situation. This can be 'my way', so it's OK!