BGM: Cornelius - 無常の世界
I worked late today. This morning I went to the library to borrow some books, and at AEON I started reading one book of them, Natsuki Ikezawa's masterpiece (池澤夏樹『終わりと始まり』.) This book has always taught me how to keep having a certain will to look at the situation in front of me directly, and declaring my poor (but also, really precious) opinions even though I often have to feel hesitation. In this book, Ikezawa says that he tries not to blame someone else too easily/carelessly, and also not to agitate his opinions loudly even though he (and we) had to face the terrible Great East Japan Earthquake. Yes, it is a really important attitude. I respect him.
During reading this book, I had this idea. How should I face/solve the annoying emotion so called anger? TBH, I often (yes, OFTEN) feel this bothersome emotion. Ikezawa writes/declares his opinions in his really quite, gentle, and intelligent style/attitude. But I can see that he has kept his honest, sincere rage toward various things (some Japanese politicians, cruel capitalism, violent economical system, etc.) I have been impressed. Yes, as you have known this, anger/rage must be annoying enough. But it can product something creative... I have learned this. Oh, our emotion is a great really annoying, and also really lovely thing.
Besides reading that Ikezawa's book, I opened some pages of the book I have bought (but never read last year.) Daisuke Kataoka's great trial of studying about Keigo Oyamada, who is also called as Cornelius (片岡大右『小山田圭吾の「いじめ」はいかにつくられたか』.) Although I have read only the first chapter of this, I can see that it must be a great, really "actual" and "keen" trial for us to think - especially, at this situation. Even though I have been using the internet for over 30 years, I often tend to share my anger/rage too carelessly (as I have written above.) As this book says, even though it must be based on the concept called justice, we shouldn't move/act too easily/rapidly because it can become so harmful/destructive. Keep calm... I say this to myself once again.
