2022/08/05 English

BGM: The Smiths "Meat is Murder"

Today I worked late. In the morning I read Yoko Tawada's "Broken Muttering in Fever". I can't see how I should describe her attitude. I had thought that she must be smart. That means that she must have very intelligent senses that enable her to express herself in Japanese and German freely and smartly. But this essay collection tells me that she is a writer who tries to face the paradoxes of two languages with herself, and she also tries to live inside that chaos. Yes, she has great 'meat'... I thought of this with the guide my Japanese, but it sounds too erotic.

Stéphane Mallarmé had said that "La chair est triste". If I translate this into English, it would become "Meat is sad". I can remember that Jun Togawa, a Japanese female singer sings "I am a cluster of meat". Both of them use the word "meat" to describe themselves, with a pessimistic tone. So this expression can say that they are very powerless. If I called her 'meat', it would also be very brutal and pessimistic. I want to call her a 'body conscious' writer.

I had time so I started reading Hiroshi Osada's "My favorite solitude". His keen sense of language works well. He writes about the pleasure of nonsense poems, and also about giving names to something. I can remind of XTC's pop songs I am listening to recently as 'nonsense'. I know that Japanese popular songs are basically love songs, and I think that might be evidence of the fact that Japanese people are square. Probably we need more songs that contain nonsense words on pop melodies. I like Yosui Inoue's nonsense songs.

About the name, I had started calling myself a 'disco cat'. When I had to call myself a new name on the internet, I didn't want to use my real name so just started using 'disco cat', which came from the music I was listening to, which was Takkyu Ishino's "throbbing disco cat". It might be not any fresh or stunning name. It wouldn't appear on the surface even if I tried to do 'an ego search. I like this name.