I remember the tweet Masaya Chiba posted yesterday. In the scene, every precious meal is called a number at a restaurant. How can we see that? Of course, it's easy to laugh at how naive this tweet, which is trying to tell us about how capitalism works dangerously, can be. But I even think that this kind of talent which makes them speak some notices naively is a must for being a philosopher. I accepted this notice deeply. Can I deny capitalism? How can I stop its overwork with any common sense? I have to think about it as a customer at the end of the system.
Once I was into the successful image that capitalism tells us to follow and become so. Richer, bigger... I guess that rich people are great in capitalism because they 'consume' more ultimately than poor people. Indeed, I don't know Marx so this must be bullshit of an idiot. But once I followed the image of material success in this world and tried to make myself bigger on the internet media. Oh my gosh.
The atmosphere that dutiful consumers must be great. From somewhen, I started not obeying that atmosphere. Indeed, I watch movies by subscription and enjoy shopping at Aeon. So I might live in a paradox. Exactly, I can't show my back to capitalism. But at least, I want to choose another lifestyle that is different from 'fitter, happier, more productive' (from Radiohead's song). Even if the truth might be that I can't earn money basically, and so I have to become free from my life in half as Yoshimichi Nakajima says.
Today, I read Kenichiro Mogi's "The system of our brains that product our consciousness" and listened to Scha Dara Parr's "5th Wheel 2 The Coach" as I do in the summertime. And I thought about various things like "What is my brain which makes my mind or consciousness?" or "Qualia, which Kenichiro Mogi discusses, is the same thing as Sartre found the sign of our existences in it?". Ah, I am already 47 but still, seem a dreamer. I am the person who 'doesn't earn more'? or 'can't earn more'? Even if I was later, I would give up changing myself and choose this way...