Finally, Christmas Eve has come. TBH, this season means that I have to work so hard every year (yes, it's the busiest period for me). This morning, I joined the English Zoom meeting, where we discussed social media and how each member uses their smartphone. Once, I chose not to have a cellphone when I was in my 30s because I believed that it would mean that cellphone would bind my private life. At that time, I had literally NO friends anywhere (even on the internet).
In this morning's discussion, I went back to my past days to recall how my life had been "before" having my smartphone. Now, for example on any train, we can see that almost everybody has their smartphone like once everybody had read each one's newspaper or book. I heard that in Spain doctors started warning too much usage of smartphones because it can cause bad effects on our mental health. Yes, I can tell what it means. I have to be careful about that because I have an addictive mind (for example, I have been quitting alcohol for about 9 years because of this addiction).
On LINE and WhatsApp, we exchanged our greetings for Christmas (or so-called Happy Holidays). As I have written, basically in my mind there must have been a nihilistic character therefore once I had thought that these kinds of celebrations for Christmas and the New Year. Oh, life has changed me a lot... Even though I have to work a lot these days, THIS connection in real life and also so-called cyberspace (Discord, MeWe, and so on) will help me (even cure me).
Once I had believed that I would have to become a very, ultra-strong person enough to survive this super-tough autistic life individually (maybe I had to read Nietzsche?). Actually, I hated and even blamed myself so terribly because I couldn't have earned a lot (at least, as my father had done). Oh my gosh! Now, I honestly believe that I can't live alone, instead, I should try to connect myself with this world's various "resources". It means I should (or, I have a right to) connect myself to the outer world's welfare, and also certain warm friendships.
Happy Holidays, Dear Readers! I hope you have these holidays during this season.
