I have two days off (today and tomorrow). This morning, I joined the daily Zoom meeting in English. After that, I went to AEON to think about various things as a morning activity of mine, but couldn't find any creative ideas in my mind. Therefore, to change my mood (also, I still have a small amount of money from my bonus), I went to the bookstore in AEON. Then, I found an interesting paperback, Masaya Chiba's "Philosophy of Studying [千葉雅也『勉強の哲学 増補版』]" so bought it.
After that, I went to the main house of my group home, and saw the sub-admin. We talked about several topics such as my mental problems, my schedule this season, and when we would go to any store to buy clothes. I also showed the tip of the middle finger of my right hand (as I have written in this journal, last Monday I found it started having pain and also showing white pus, so I tried to meet a doctor. Now, I am using an ointment to cure that tip). After that meeting, I went back to my room and had lunch.
This afternoon, I went to a library in the next town to borrow two books, and after that, I started writing my ideas as notes in English. One of the ideas I have thought of was this; On Twitter, I often find that some users (especially, young ones) tell so-called rants to their close people such as their bosses, doctors, and parents. I can see their feelings because even I have once written a rant to my co-worker in this journal, and also when I was young I had written so many rants to the people around me. Even now, I have some compliments from others. However, NOW I never want to write mine in public (at least, on the Internet like this).
However, it won't mean I have become a super strong, ultra tough guy. Basically, I am still a too-sensitive, too-childlike person who still has a mood that is easily "moved" by plenty of factors. However, after 40 years old when I joined the "danshu" meeting and also the self-help group with my ex-job coach, my mind developed a strong but soft policy that always supports me, or even prevents me from any outer "rants" or "irresponsible criticism" from others. I am right, and they are also right, therefore the problem is how to find our certain agreement to find each one's "eclectic" attitudes.
