BGM: Dimitri From Paris - Neko Mimi Mode
With Dimitri From Paris's elegant and marvelous songs, this morning I spent time at AEON (and also, tried to enjoy Le Clézio's collection of his lectures at a university in China.) TBH I had been haunted by a huge negative, almost destructive emotion in my mind though... but Le Clézio's book "gripped" my mind certainly so I could enjoy it. I remembered that Dimitri From Paris once released a song called "Music Saved My Life", then, in this case, I might be able to say that "Books have saved my life".
Certainly... Looking at my daily life, I can find that it can have been saved (even "decorated" literally) by reading even though I must have never been a diligent "bookworm". I can never see how you find me in these journals, but I say that I am not so strong that I ALWAYS have to take care of my mind. So, Le Clézio's lectures taught me that books must have truly splendid power in themselves which can push me forward, and also broaden my mind enough to enjoy this world's huge scale.
According to the web service "bookmeter", I can see that I have read about 1500 books in these 9 years (but accurately, when I read the same book twice I count that as two books.) Of course, I must have forgotten almost all of those' content though (therefore I have to read them so repetitively.) Of course, I enjoy reading books for pleasure or comfort for my soul, not for adding knowledge to my mind... If I wanted to add it to me, I would choose other books that popular economists or politicians have written.
I worked late today. At the break time, I started thinking if this life could be an ideal one for me. When I was young, I had a huge "greedy", beast-like desire within me that pushed me forward. Indeed, it can be a certain piece of evidence that said that I was just a truly young guy... But, that huge beast in my mind always crucified (even hurt) my mind. Now, even though not completely, but bit by bit I can feel that I have been released by that kind of beast in my mind enough to enjoy this world's true vastness as Le Clézio had taught us in various splendid books of him.
