BGM: Denki Groove - Shangri-La
Today I worked late. This morning I got confused seriously. Yes, it is not rare for me, but today I felt that it hurt my body slightly. I wanted to vomit and it hurried me, but anytime I want to stay natural and do what I can do. Anytime, I want to stay myself... I do what I should do quietly. Today, although I wanted to run away from my life, but I went out from my group home to the library, and borrowed two books. After that, I went into my reading time as usual. Today I read Michael Berry's "Translation, Disinformation, and Wuhan Diary". TBH I have read Fang Fang's "Wuhan Diary" once. It was really an interesting and impressive book. And Michael Berry's this book is the one by the translator who did "Wuhan Diary" from Chinese to English. It attracted me so I read with Depeche Mode's "101".
Fang Fang's "Wuhan Diary" is the "diary" which comes from Wuhan, where once got really into chaos by corona disease as the title describes. I remember that this book is a "vivid" and "real” book by the record of those days. It still delivers how once Wuhan was suffered from that pandemic (I'm sorry, I have to read again to explain about this book more neatly). It is also a kind of dangerous book because of its vivid content against the "checking" system of Chinese government. The author Michael Berry, who translated that diary into English, was involved with a lot of "hurting" on the net because of his that work. A lot of harming comment came to him. And he was also treated suspiciously as "it is a fiction" or "publishing that diary in this time must have some secret reasons". The people who strictly believe conspiracy started blaming him by various ways terribly.
I might have to say I'm sorry to Michael Berry, but this non-fiction/documentary attracted me really strongly. Literally, I couldn't stop reading until the end. Conspiracy, "black or white" style of thinking, fake news... those phenomenon on the net appear from this book certainly. At there, we can see the "intolerance for the 'different' comments". It is huge chaos. Indeed, I can be also soaked into that chaos so I can't be proud of myself (I'm always trying to take a distance from that kind of conspiracy, but it might "swallow" me someday). I admit that I once did silly actions blown by the net's mood. Therefore this book told me that staying calm and acting with tolerance for the others. I shouldn't be blown by others. This book's taste is bitter because of that lesson.
Anyway, after reading this book, I posted the impressions I had on various social media. Recently I am feeling that I am talking about a lot of books too much, but I would become talkative if I read any interesting books. Oh my gosh! I am forgetting the fact that I felt the feeling of vomiting. I wrote many ideas on the memo pad, and posted the pics of that book on Instagram. Yes, I am really a dry, or an easy-going person. It tells me that the habit of reading, which has been built from my childhood, certainly makes this myself. It is my natural character that through reading I think about various things quite slowly. Then, I want to go that way. It is not my way that being a "fighter" who battles with their keyboard to beat the other side of the world. I want to find the inner voice, and walk guided by that voice's guidance.