BGM: Primal Scream - Loaded
Today I worked early. At lunchtime, I did the homework of the English conversation class. I wrote an essay about Shiso city, the city we are living now, because the teachers said you can write anything freely. I have been living in this city for over 40 years totally, but once I wanted to run away from here when I was a teenager. It's just a really rural city like "Twin Peaks", so it doesn't have any amusement place or the shops like Tower Records. Only AEON is the best place to enjoy for us. It was quite boring for me at teenage period, and I couldn't see why I should stay in this rural town and enjoy anything in this closed atmosphere. It takes an hour to go to Himeji to enjoy shopping. I thought that Shiso city was quite a bulls**t city.
As I wrote many times in this diary, I have been bullied by others because of autism. So I sometimes met the people who bully me at AEON, then their eyes simply "hurt" me. Therefore I had an ambition of going out of this town to Tokyo or Osaka. Maybe God had watched that miserable myself who just tried to endure that severe environment, and gave me the huge luck so I could go to a university in Tokyo. But when I moved into Tokyo, I had to live another stressful life. I got lost many times because I couldn't understand Tokyo's map, and the system of subways in Tokyo was really confusing. The meals were really expensive... luckily, there were a lot of restaurants and cafes for the university students (and our university has their original restaurant).
Through that Tokyo life, and I couldn't find any good job so returned to here... now I am free from bullying, and can enjoy the Shiso life. It has really clean and tasty water, and I started feeling that the greenery of mountains are beautiful. Because of the development of the internet, I don't feel the gap of culture between Tokyo and our city. Even though we stay in a rural area, we still can enjoy Sly & The Family Stone and De La Soul. We also can enjoy the movies on Netflix. Then, there are lesser reasons why I should stay in Tokyo. Now I can recognize how this city's atmosphere is so peaceful and warm, therefore I can find the charm of this city. Now I like this city. I always learn English on Discord in this town, and also spend my days reading. Quitting alcohol, and it brings me what the happiness is.
The evening, I went to the English conversation class. The teachers gave their time for us as a party, and we the members enjoyed the cookies and tea we had brought. It was a great time. We also sang "Take Me Home, Country Road" by the member's guitar playing, and one of the teachers played her flute. The music was also great. She showed an interest in Kenzaburo Oe's novels, so I explained that our city's library has a paperback of Oe's short novels collection with my poor English. Finishing the final lesson of this season, and I learned that I should get shameful experience to learn more, not just sitting in my room alone. It is really "back to the basic". And, the LINE group I belong to gets more members from our lesson. It is certainly increasing. Now I have many friends in many group, and enrich my relationship. I can't say what would work successful. But that's life.