BGM: 井上陽水 "ワインレッドの心"
A day for the hospital. I went to there and talked about my daily life. After that, I got medicines and went Aeon. There, I tried to read books or think about something as usual but couldn't. I felt strong anxiety but couldn't see why, anyway I did nothing. So I went to a bookstore in Aeon, then found some books about Audrey Tang. When I read the books about her, I exactly feel fine and can find something brilliant in my future. That must be hope. I might have to carry her books when I went to the hospital. As a losarios, or the book to learn something new again.
I stayed a while there, and found Mari Yamazaki's book "Living With The Walls". This book is about a Japanese legendary author Kobo Abe. I had read Kobo Abe's book "The Woman In The Dunes" and found it marvelous, so I bought and read it. I have no knowledge about Mari Yamazaki, but her theory about Kobo Abe is fine and interesting. When she lived poor in her young days, she learned from Marquez and Kobo Abe. I thought that this book needs my sincere attitude.
TBH I was a 'late' reader, or I should confess that I decided to read classic novels or masterpieces when I was in my 40s. So I can't proud of my reading life. I have never read " One Hundred Years of Solitude" by Marquez, and also read Kobo Abe only a little. But I started thinking that "I can't be any critic so I will spend my life with the books I truly want to read"... writing this, I started to think about reading Marquez's masterpieces. I will never think that I want to be at the top of the Japanese literature field. I want to read the book this life needs, and also enrich this life step by step.
Autumn is coming little by little. Today's afternoon I ate a lunchbox that has fried oysters. The season of oysters, sanma (pacific saury), salmon, and mackerel is coming. We also say that autumn is for reading, then what books should I read this autumn? I might read Marquez's masterpieces or his autobiography. Or, as I wrote above, I would read Audrey Tang's books and imagine the future that is coming nearby us (but it might be only a dream so I should be careful). Like this, my life goes on. Am I growing up with these activities? I hope so...
