A week has passed after having my wisdom tooth pulled, but TBH I'm still feeling slightly dizzy somewhere in my mind. As I have written in these journals, at first I doubted if I could have suffered from so-called heat stroke. But it seems to be lasting certainly after the treatment I had got in the next town. Then, it is possible to come from "summer fatigue", the tiredness this long hot summer has brought to us. Or, the stress I have had to experience this week.
This morning, after the Zoom meeting in English, I went out of my group home to the library to borrow some books. Then, at AEON I started reading one of those books, however the slight vertigo I mentioned above came to me again. I took a pill to cure that, and sent messages to the sub-admin of my group home. She gave me some precise advice soon, and also embraced me a lot. After taking the pill, I shared the current condition with my close friends in a LINE group.
One of my friends in that group praised me as I had been very calm about this case. Of course, I'm very glad to hear that. But if I was able to stay calm (I guess I am not such a strong person who can stay calm against this vertigo which lasts a week), then it would come from this certain, strong friendship. I won't pretend to be a nice person about this (in other words, about this case I won't tell you a lie). Yes, if I were literally "isolated" from any intimate human relationship as once I had to experience as a heavy drinker, I would give up everything soon and even think about quitting my job itself completely.
Once, when I was bullied by literally all of my classmates in the school... Of course, NOW I can see that period was so simply "crazy". However, as an autistic kid, through that "mad" period I had to imprint a stubborn bias such as no one seemed to be trustworthy (or, this can be rewritten as more simpler expression... everyone must tell lies, especially to me). However, after quitting alcohol, eventually, I started learning the simple truth which tells me that "that period" could have been simply terrible, and WRONG...
